Stats: married two years this Sunday. Me: 29, her: 33. Stepson 9. (Already starting this off on the right foot, aren’t I? Lol).
Lifting: bench 265, squats 265, deads 365. 12% BF, best shape of my fucking life.
Reading: NMMNG(x2) WISNIFG, MAP, MMSLP, book of pook, side bar multiple times. Haven’t been posting OYS like I should, but its because I felt I was in a good place just owning my shit and working on my MAP.
Career: make decent money for my area, up for a promotion by the end of the year, owning my shit.
Relationship: sex life stalled to a drop after I stopped owning my shit in the relationship 2 months before marriage. Marriage was her decision(I’m a pussy) and so of course she lost respect for me. Half assed MRP until April 20 of this year. Began owning my shit in absolutely every aspect of my life. I understand it’s only been 5 months but the 1000 foot rope has tightened but my wife continues to be a cold bitch about everything. So I said fuck it and just continued on with my MAP. She even has stated that we live separate lives( told her she has the opportunity to come live a great life with me, but even that pisses her off knowing I’m over here enjoying life).
Been trying to have kids since November of ‘18 but hasn’t happened. In about July I said fuck it I don’t want kids with her and allowed sex to drop to once a month. Just am not attracted to this woman when I have HBs at the gym, work and store all ready to hop on my dick if I gave them the chance.
The stay plan=go plan, but I was preparing to begin the divorce discussion in November.
As fate would have it, we had sex once in her last cycle, I was apparently off on my calculation of when her ovulation was, and she got pregnant.
Now I realize that I just have to own my shit with this one, but I’m genuinely not excited to have a child with a woman I have no interest for and had plans of leaving.
Not really a question, and I don’t want any feel good stories about being a dad because I’m not trying to leech my happiness from anyone here, but I’m struggling with my mindset right now.