Hello again. I guess this is technically a follow up.
At the start of this year I made a post asking for advice on living with 5 women. Long story short so I don’t have to link it, This year I moved to a student sharehouse, 6 bedrooms, and the 5 random people that moved in all happened to be girls. Within a week I was getting iois from two of them, but I knew trying anything at all, let alone the very beginning of my lease, would be a bad idea.
Asked for advice here, got some good tips, but turns out I didn’t have to worry for most of the year as shortly after moving I went exclusive with one of my plates. That’s another story irrelevant to this question, but as a TL;DR that ended just over a month ago cause, you know, I like my girlfriend like I like my coffee: without another dudes dick in it.
All was well, my turn was over, got back on tinder, was glad to know I still had game, then about two weeks ago I went clubbing with 2 of my room mates (call these girls b and k) + b’s boyfriend. Came home a bit more drunk than I should have been, ended up in k’s room. No escalation beforehand either, we didn’t hook up while clubbing, shit we barely saw each other. The idea didn’t even cross my mind once. But we came home, were next to each other on the couch, got close, and boom. That was it. Maybe it was on her mind a lot more than I thought.
Aftermath, post nut clarity kicked in on what I’d just done. I told her we should probably not do that again. K ‘agreed’.
But last weekend, it happened again. Nearly exactly same scenario. Clubbing, no action. Get home, couch, K’s room. I was screaming on the inside after this one, since I’d promised myself I wouldn’t make the same mistake twice, yet there I was. I calmly told K there and then that we are room mates, this probably isn’t healthy, and we needed to stop. She ‘agreed’ again.
Fuck me, watch their actions not their words, right guys?
All was good for a week. Cut to TONIGHT. Fuck sake, I didn’t even fucking go out. I got home late from work, was making dinner, and K, B and B’s bf come in the door after a night out. the other two make their drunk asses to their rooms pretty quick, but as K is walking up the stairs she gives me the fuck me eyes. My brain was yelling no, but my dick was yelling yes. I listened to my head at first, and I headed to my bedroom. But K must had heard my dick yelling yes, as not 5 minutes later she invited herself into my room in her underwear. Sorry brain, I failed you. You trusted me, and I failed you.
Aftermath was déjà-fucking-vu. Did the whole ‘we shouldn’t do this’ but with a lot more ‘for real this time’s. She laughed and ‘agreed’ with me again, then as she was leaving said ‘I guess I won’t see you next time’.
And now I’m lying in my bed typing this feeling like a dumbass. Don’t shit where you eat. Why can’t I stick to that. It’s so damn simple.
Lying here with my balls drained, I know if this keeps going it can only end bad. I guess I’m asking what I can do next time this happens, because I know it’s gonna happen again. What can I tell my horny self next time my room mate spreads her legs and invites me in, that’s gonna make me say no? Cause right now I feel like I got no self control, and it’s gonna come back to bite me. That’s all really, cheers for reading.