If you’ve read my previous posts on Depressive and Anxious wives, good for you. Some have asked why I have picked the topic of “Depressive and Anxious Wives” rather than AWALT (even though this rule still applies). The reason that I’ve chose this extreme version of your woman is because yes, while AWALT applies, it seems to me after being here on MRP for a long time that some women naturally pursue chaos to get feelz, and thus those traits usually manifest themselves in your relationship and wife as anxiety or depression.

As a simple reminder, here’s the previous 3 posts – which you should read to understand the context of the next stage that I think happens once you’ve accepted it’s all your fault, built a safe place, and converted dread into desire.

Part 1: Depressive and Anxious Wives: How it’s all your fault

Part 2: Depressive and Anxious Wives: Transformation and Building Escape

Part 3: Depressive and Anxious Wives: Converting Dread to Desire

Discovering you mission of authenticity

By this time, you’ve likely recognized that building a safe place within your life for your woman to find and gravitate towards usually results in great quality sex. You may have even discovered how to abandon dread altogether in place of inspiring desire. This post is an attempt at providing MRPers more guidance on building a deeper safe place including honesty and authenticity that contains more than sexual fulfillment and gravity towards sexual desire. Learning to use authenticity and patience in your life will drive your woman into greater depths of feelz, which then inspires more desire in both sexual and non-sexual ways.

The first question that I found myself attempting to answer when trying to lead my wife into deeper authenticity was to determine for myself the following things:

- Who am I as a man?

- How do I project the authenticity and truth about who I am as a man to others that I encounter?

These two questions that I asked myself were core to my mission. I did not yet know my mission or what it was that I needed to do with my life, but I did know that I wasn’t quite sure what kind of man I was. To answer this question, with true authenticity and masculinity, it was required for me to strip all ideas of who I was before and for once – peel back the layers of ego like an onion and discover what was at my core. When I was finally able to peel back all the layers of pain, hurt, and false senses of security – the answer presented itself with great force.

I discovered that I was a man who was full of energy and gifts. I had a desire to give myself to this world in ways that were unique to me and spoke from my core. These gifts can manifest themselves in many ways, and perhaps you have some of the same: strength, mental fortitude, direction, passion, creativity, leadership, understanding, non-judgement, gracious, mindful, protection, courage, independence and assertiveness.

I discovered that all of those things were just qualities of who I was as a man. You may share quite a few of those with me. But most of all, the largest thing that I was as a man was… giving. I would share all those great traits and qualities from my core to influence and change people’s lives for the better (or worse). Either way, I am the prize. I am the gift. I give freely no matter the circumstance, until it no longer works and I choose no longer to give.

Only when you know who you are, and what you have to give this world can you then become an authentic version of yourself who will then (if you choose to) give that gift to his woman so that she can be your reflection.

If you’re an asshole, your wife will reflect your asshole better than anyone. Choose and discover who you are with great care. A man who gives from abundance great things to this world and his woman will soon discover that not only is your wife a mirror of who you are, but so is the world and everyone you meet.

Being authentic to your masculine self allows the polarity in your relationship to surface and your woman to live in her feminine. If you are LARPing, so is she. If you’re bullshitting your way through life, so is the world around you. Find where you are no longer authentic in your life and challenge that mental model with the force of your direction and masculinity. Challenge it all. Change if you must. Choose who you are.

Creating the Feelz 2.0

You should know by now that your woman, if she is depressed or anxious, requires BIG feelz and emotions in order to satisfy and remain congruent to who she is. You should have accepted this by now, and if you haven’t you certainly need to go back to the sidebar or give up and choose a different woman. Most men, from what I gathered here at my time in MRP, only wish to dab their toes in the water of the deep end of understanding their woman with the purpose of getting better quality sex.

That will not work with a depressive and anxious wife.

Using your masculine direction, this gives way for her to let go of her masculine energy and put it into her feminine energy. The masculine is direction. The feminine is chaotic. But guess what?

You need chaos and uncertainty just as much as she does.

Why? The challenge. The test. The things she says or does to drive you absolutely into an emotional tailspin is just that – a test of your frame to see if you are able to overcome those emotions and lead her to a place of safety and masculine strength. Can you overcome her shitty behavior and still continue to be the man that you are? Most men cannot, and this is why we usually end up here at MRP. We fail time and time again tests of our manhood and become betatized in an attempt to supplicate her feelz with more feelz.

She doesn’t want your feelz, or at least not in the way that you think she does. The best feeling that your woman will ever get is when you stand up against her, look her in the eyes, and call her out on her bullshit never with a word of anger or disrespect. You call her out with who you are.

There are still ways to create Feelz 1.0 throughout your relationship that lead to Feelz 2.0 - but that's a topic that I should tackle in a different post.

Shitty Comfort Testing

This is the epitome of how I want to be tested now in addition to regular comfort testing (which there are thousands of words on how to pass here at MRP).

What is a shitty comfort test?

A shitty comfort test is complicated but once you understand the motivation behind a woman’s desire to do it, you will understand exactly what YOU need to do when encountering one if you choose to pass it. You don’t have to pass it, but I sincerely doubt that intentionally failing a shitty comfort test is who you are if you’ve put the time and energy into self discovery.

It’s simple. A shitty comfort test is an effort on your woman’s part to elicit the STRONGEST frame you have, all the while playing the nice card but not offering her the desired outcome that her hamster thinks she needs. Remember: this is the wild hamster, who really doesn’t know what it wants and will grab at anything to satisfy it’s thirst for feelz. Here’s a recent comfort test that I encountered, because I made something a priority over her:

“You’re just leaving to go do XYZ? I have been asking you for days to do ABC. You always get to leave whenever you want. You don’t care about how I feel. Go ahead, do whatever you want. It’s fine.”

On the surface this seems like a shit test (“You always get leave whenever you want”). Betas reply to this by staying home, or arguing that they made time for her to do ABC earlier/later. Betas might even get angry at their wives for being a bitch when there is something important that they need to do. Anger is bred in crazy ways during shitty comfort testing.

If you have read before on how to pass shitty comfort tests, it’s simple: STFU, carry on. But I want to challenge that idea entirely by making this the key opportunity to provide the biggest and best feelz that a woman requires.

I looked at my wife after she said that. I stared deeply into her eyes, and looked through her words and through her emotions. I peered deeply into her, using the brightest eyes that I could muster, and let her FEEL that no matter what she said, I knew what I was doing was more important right now than providing her comfort. I told her, with my eyes only and intense STFU, that I’d be there later for her when she decided to approach me in a way that would be constructive to our relationship and my frame. She stared back at me at first with fire in her eyes and anger in her heart, but 10 seconds later I watched the anxiety leave her face.

“Fine.” A second time I heard this.

I continued to deeply look through her, look through her bullshit, until she FELT me standing in the face of her ridiculous behavior – still the same man that I discovered long ago. Smiling. The man that she desires. The strength of a thousand men were in me against this simple chaotic episode in her mind.

She felt the warm strength of calmness and direction.

“Ok, but I need to go do ABC soon.”

Continue to look through her. STFU. Use your eyes. Use your body language. Open up your arms, the front of your chest, your breath, your large heart. Open it all, even if you have to physically do so by getting up and stretching. Continue looking through her and into her.

“I’m sorry, I just get so worked up sometimes and I get jealous because you get to do all these things all the time and I don’t. I know you need to do XYZ for our family, I just don’t like that it takes time away from us.”

And there you have it. There’s the end of the test. She’s overtly stated she is seeking comfort. How did she arrive here through the chaos of her hamster? You. Your strength. Your masculine balance.

THOSE are the feelz that she desires most, and those are a whole entirely different level of feelz that she has never had before. Feelz 2.0

She is testing your authentic self and that connection to her. You must wade through the bullshit of the daily grind to discover in any way possible the authenticity that she desires from your core. Your woman is seeking an authentic connection that ONLY YOU CAN PROVIDE HER, and if she denies these feelz then she is lying. She is full of ego.

Why should you welcome the tests like this? It is a test of congruency, but more specifically it’s a test of her showing you inauthentic behavior (it’s not about XYZ or ABC or the nail) to see if you can deliver back to her those feelz despire her shitty behavior. Deliver the most authentic version of STFU ever and feelz through her. That’s a shitty comfort test, and that’s how it’s passed.

I love shitty comfort tests, and so should you. They are the best test of them all. But they require strength and patience that you never knew possible within you. That’s why they’re so great – they take you to your edge and require you to live in that uncomfortable edge for longer than any other test.

Creating Feelz 2.0 with the Juggernaut Cock

Ok, so it’s a little bit funny to read this now that I’ve written it but I cannot come up with any better term than this one. Where and how must you give your biggest cock ever?

Remember: your wife is seeking comfort and strength all at once.

As you woman pushes you harder and harder with both shit and shitty comfort tests she is continually seeking your strength and for you to penetrate her moods and feelings as you would the world. When I know my wife requires this, I give her from my own core: The Juggernaut Cock.

It’s huge. It’s forceful. It’s powerful. The juggernaut cock is the largest cock you can ever imagine – and it’s yours. Some guys here talk about cavemanning your wife aggressively with dominance, but I also think there is another way.

Come from behind her, jump her in bed, pull her into the closet. You know what I’m talking about. It’s the moment when the spontaneous desire within you MUST take your wife with your strength and power, often as surprise. Not a huge surprise here, but this is likely when you find your wife the wettest she’s ever been. Why? Your wife desires you to penetrate her moods and feelings as you would the world**.** Often, with reckless disregard of the consequences with COURAGE (remember your qualities now?).

She pushes you harder and harder, until your body becomes swollen as an erection. This is what she desires. For your body and your core to be full of life – full of strength – like a rock hard juggernaut cock.

As she pushes harder and harder, she desires for you to break through her, penetrate her, and leave her craving that feeling she gets from Feelz 2.0

As she pushes harder and harder, you break… but not in the way that she would expect you to full of beta emotion. You break into your masculine. Your inner drive. Your sexuality. Your erection in this world. You grab her by the waist, turn her around quickly while ripping her panties to her knees and you take your huge, forceful, erect juggernaut cock and push it hard and harder into her.

You push your cock into her so she feelz the penetration of who you are. You hold that cock inside of her, pushing deeper and deeper – harder and harder – to HER edge that reaches fear and comfort all at once. You have gone so deep into her that she feelz (2.0) the man that you are. As your cock pulses inside of her against her raw challenge, you hold it a while longer.

There you go.

You’ve now penetrated your woman for the first time in your life. You can now go and penetrate the world.

Get up, smile, and get back to work.

You’ve just delivered your woman the greatest feelz she has ever desired. Yor cock has become her safe place, along with who you are. Watch the desire build in her to be penetrated over and over by you. You are a man that penetrates his woman with all that he is.

Edit: Part 5: The Power of Your Mission and Greatest Purpose