To preface have been applying red pill to my life since 2015.
I’ve never been a wallet to a woman, learned solid boundries, self respect, ect.
Women are just people and Im not attached to any outcome when speaking to them.
However because of biology my sexuality enjoys role play where I worship a womans body and feet, and enjoy being dominated mentally, like a dominatrix kind of thing.
Don’t really enjoy intercourse sex unless im in a relationship, and part of it is im only turned on by worship and emotional connection.
Sure that sounds beta, yet this is how my dick works and im mid 30s so I would know.
Still apply red pill else where. Even had a few “foot plates” for a while lol. Some women were bored that i wasn’t fucking, others were intrigued. It used to bug me, yet since meditating and growing I could care less.
Plating actually got boring for me though cause I couldn’t get turned on enough without having a solid companionship with these “foot plates”.
Still prefer either monk goal mode or a chill relationship with one woman where I still pursue being a musician and do work thats meaningful to me.
Btw how this sexuality is not porn induced, since 5 I’ve always had dreams about worshipping women on thrones and all that, her feet being a big part of that.
Nowdays I like thicker women and some bbws(have a limit). I like thick curvy feet with proportionate toes.
I love when they are kind hearted and submissive in the relationship and then out of nowhere erotically dominate me.
So a 10 to most guys with bony feet whose a bitch is like a 2 to me. A 3 or 5 who is a cool, calm and kind, has nice thick even feet that are well kept, she could be a 9-10 on my dick hard scale.
Its biology and apparently its not what im “supposed” to like to be truely red pill?
Then I see some inconsistencies with how red pill sees either af/bb.
A good friend of mine is an incredible musician who is unemployed, lives with his mom at 30, and has an awesome skinny girlfriend who is considered quite cute.
She works and pays the rent and utilities portion of his moms house. He stays at home and reads and makes music all day, everyday.
She chases his attention, is even there for him when he’s actually shed tears about how jobs oppress his spirit. Has loud jam sessions at the moms house. He isn’t considered chad like Occasionally mows lawn, cooks and cleans up some.
Would love to hear your guys take on this.
Also Im a skinny dude who has had 9’s hit on me and I wasn’t attracted to them. Im shy too. Not often yet its happened. Im a musician too and refuse to spend money on women. I tend to talk to a woman if I get ioi and only occasionally have cold approached.
Currently working on getting better at meeting new people. Working on weights and not being so shy though. Improving health after autoimmune condition made me a bit more shy.
Anyways, any insight on how one can be red pill yet unconventional like me, because of biology ect.
And insight into how my good friend and his girl seems to defy philosophy?