Hello everyone, throwaway for obvious reasons. My (27) girlfriend (28) is asking, or better say requesting, that I marry her. If it was another case, or other person I would show her the door, but it isn't, and here's the long story.
I am from third world country, when I finished HS got into Uni, in field related to medicine, but not the medicine (think radiological technologies, nursing, lab, physio) because my parents forced me to go there but not the medicine. There I meet this 5'7'' girl who was 6 really. nice face but nothing to stand out. Then I had 310lbs at my worst, while I was 6'4''. While I had height and kinda nice face for fat fuck there is no chance I was over 3-3.5. I was Billy beta, no doubt.
We started dating and she was really nice to me, when I decided to study medicine (6 years) she fully supported me and told me how I deserve it and how should I go for it, and shit like that. She helped me even put arguments to my parents. I got into medicine and that was going fine until my Grandpa died, the man I loved the most, and I was fucking depressed and cried many times on her shoulder. After that I hit rough patch and was on verge of suicide, but she helped me go through that. We always hung out somewhere cheap or free because I never had money and really was not into her paying for shit, even though she always offered.
In my third year of medicine I decided it's time to stop overeating and all that shit, as much as I did that for myself, I did it for her too. I hit the gym, always used to do MMA, now did it more, lost over 50 kg, now I have 100kg, at 11% body fat. When I started skipping meals, and working out a lot more, I told her I did it for her as well and she always said shit like "You don't have to", "I love you either way". In my 4th year she got professional job and nice pay, she bought me stuff, even though I couldn't reciprocate.
I finished med school last year, got paid cardiology residence in the best hospital in the country, and I am the shit, I look good, I am very appreciated in my field and people are projecting me good career, I did some amazing stuff and award-winning researches.
But my gf now asked me to marry her, and shit I get that, she is getting older, and we both want children, she had job, I've got job. But here's the thing, I know I am now, today 8 or 9, with nice SMV, and she is 5.5 who is approaching the wall, and if it was anyone else I would told her to gtfo, but she was always here for me, she never cheated on me (although even when I was the most beta I've always told her:"If you think you could do better, go"). I did fuck other girls, but it's only that. I don't know how to put it into words, I believe I can do much better, and I love her, I am not in love with her, but I truly love her. Last year I tried to make her dump me, but it's not happening.
TL:DR girl was with me when I was 3.5 and nobody and she was 6, supported me all the time, now I am 9 with good career and she is asking me to marry her.