TLDR: I’ve changed and see the difference in women behavior and how they treat me better then my past blue pill version who wasn’t getting any play and it’s made me disgusted with women because Blue pill would be my dating choice if I was a woman
Recently I’ve felt like I’m going through red pill rage again . These women honestly disgust me . When I discovered the red pill it was tough to swallow but I accepted that I needed to change and improve myself . Not only for women but my life . Recently I’ve been spinning plates to great success and I can’t take these women seriously . I look back at the version of myself that wasn’t getting any play and using my logical brain I would date him over my current version if I was a woman but we all know that’s not how it works . Now I’ve pretty much turned into a misogynist asshole and treat these women pretty shitty but they always come back for more . 4 years ago when I was a blue pill I was kind , generous , humble super charming and selfless if I only had one dollar and you needed it more then me I would give it to you . I would Want this version of myself to be married to my daughter . I’m still charming but it comes from a place of manipulation and self gain . I’m nowhere as funny cause I stopped to be taken more serious. Even with all the self improvement I just honestly believe that I would prefer the old version of myself . My interactions with these women leave me with a level of rage pill rage I’ve never hit. Everything they say goes through on ear and out the other because I feel like everything they say is nonessential nonsense or lies. I’m disgusted with them honestly. I thought I would never feel red pill rage again after I started to plate women but it’s more intense this go around . The other day one of my plates was telling me how much she loves me and being emotional when I didn’t want to commit and I never done anything for this woman to feel like she loves me and needs me. I’ve never treated her better then a booty call but now I’m the love of her life. Has anyone Else went through this . How did you get through this ? The first red pill rage self improvement was my focus but I don’t know where to go from here the 2nd wave .