I'm going to be honest as I can be. These last months it's like I've hit a second puberty. I don't lift but I do boxing. I'm starting to get a pretty attractive body. But that's not what is making the difference.
It's my face. I started getting buzzcuts, and growing stubble and since then I get many looks or some smiles here and then.
Basically I'm good looking. I was never ugly, but for many many years I didn't look like a man, which is fine if you are a teen, but if you are 20 and people think you are 16 it's bad.
Turns out, I just needed to shave my head to look amazing and my age. I see guys mateguarding, or girls holding eye contact for longer than it should be. And this is alien for a guy who never saw himself as sexy.
Now, I humbly ask you, if you went through this sudden change, how long did it take you before your self worth stabilized? Because as much as I see girls interested, I still think she might just be friendly and I never approach with sexual intent.
Robert Glover described me in his book: a guy afraid of his sexuality.
I know all the theory, I read the sidebar, many books, watched AMS. I actually went out of my comfort zone to improve my life, and I feel incredibly happy compared to last year.
I'm not afraid of scary looking bigger men, I'm not scared of fights, etc. But I'm scared of my sexuality, because I don't want my feelings to be hurt.
As much as this sounds Disney like, I think I may have some emotional trauma I'm not aware of. Thanks for your time.