Ok so yesterday morning I made a post.... that for the most part when into different directions.. to say the least. It was basically a post saying it’s happened a couple times where I’ll fuck a girl, and she’ll say shit like “I wasn’t expecting you to be so dominant” or “why I thought you were soft and innocent to be honest”.
But the 80% of the post turned into a debate as to why I shouldn’t be eating pussy and according to some people I’m going to die of cancer.... starting to believe some of you are MGTOW virgins on here.
But to get the point, I did get some solid advice. Basically my personality isn’t congruent with sex life. As admittedly I’m a very much a beta, and still suffer from poor social skills and not being dominant and at times spineless. Despite going on maybe 20-25 first dates only 10 of them resulted in body counts. Most of them 4s and 5s. One being a 6 and the best being 7,
Tonight I’m going out with a higher SMV than I’m used to. She’s white, blonde, 5’8 in height, lifts and has a good body, etc. seems average to you all I’m sure but here in south Texas in the Valley where I’m surrounded by short chubby Hispanic girls mostly it’s pretty rare.
I want this date to be first in where I begin to develop a stronger and more dominant personality/frame. Now I’ve already failed with this date seeing as how I’m already sure I’ll fail and I’m making a “what to do” post here in asktrp. But at the very least I can make this into an exercise. Here I problems I have that I’ve reflected on thanks to yesterday’s post:
I stick to safe topics. Mostly talk about work, family, school, etc. have a hard time speaking on an emotional level and don’t know how to sexualize the convo.
Can’t speak smoothly. Feel like at times a make too much pauses to think about what I’m going to say.
I spent the whole date self conscious as to whether or not I’m entertaining the person. Tbh, I feel like this with everyone. Guy or girl, friend or family, etc. When I’m with another person I feel like I’m putting on a performance at all times and I’m afraid I’m boring them.
I suck at continuing the convo. I’m constantly saying “yeah” or “oh yeah?” After the other person has said something. At this point I’m annoying myself.
5 I’ve still yet to become the prize. I haven’t lifted and developed enough muscles, haven’t gotten great at guitar, mostly go to work and go school. At 21 (22 tomorrow) I haven’t gotten my shit together and am mediocre in every aspect.
- I spend too much mental energy worried it the night will end with me getting laid, since tbh that’s all I care about at the end of the day. Not looking for a LTR or getting know another deeply anymore.
So that’s what I can think of. It’s a lot I know, I just need advice from you on whatever you can.