There is only so much you can do to work on yourself and even if you do put into work sometimes results don't happen and even steal the results don't amount to what you really want and I can attest to this because I have been on the self-improvement train even before I was a feminist or into the red pill. Don't get me wrong I was close to being happy but relationships were not coming.

I hate this notion that you have to go on some long endless journey of self-improvement to get love and friendship because if that's the case that means people will only be around you when you're at your best. And honestly I don't think I can respect people anymore if this is the consensus. Think about this you suddenly lose your house and car and all of your money. Though you spend years building up your life so that show that you had ambition or drive; but life happened or some unforeseen circumstance took away all that effort. According to every single self-help Guru a person is well in the rights to leave you if you are at your worst. You can lose everything in an instant but it takes potentially years to rebuild and to think that I have to go on this long in this journey not just to get a woman but at least get basic respect from her it's not something I really want to do.

Right now nobody is trying to change the culture of men pursuing and doing the heavy lifting in relationships. I've missed so many feminist women in the same breath basically give out a laundry list of all the traditionally masculine qualities they want in their partner and it is so disingenuous and it lacks self-awareness.

I've been trying so hard since I was 18 to meet whatever standard there is to meet so I can get up to bat to start dating but after years of nothing I'm honestly tired and it really doesn't make me like or respect women even more this is the case.

What is more sexist then a man having to go on a stereotypical hero's journey through trials and tribulations learn the affections of a woman. Isn't that a nice guy?