Hi all! I believe I’ve posted here before on this account if not on a throwaway, but I’ve posted about my fear of vulnerability and intimacy, and a similar incident has just happened that is stressing me out. My apologies if this looks like venting because I’m not sure exactly what I’m looking for here other than to talk to people who have the same experience with a toxic mindset as me.

Last night while talking about things people have said to us, I told my gf of 6 months that the best thing I ever heard from someone else was something an ex told me (it was the first time hearing something nice and loving so the ego boost stuck with me). My Gf got offended that hearing she wants to be with me forever wasn’t #1, so I drunkenly admitted that I want to get married to her down the line to cheer her up. She reacted very positively, and I did mean it, and we talked about it a lot last night & today (with a bunch of other “beta” stuff TRP would hate).

We’re both 20 years old and haven’t been dating very long (8 months since our first date), so I can see why that would be scary for her, but she’s reacted so well to it all and said she feels the exact same way I do. I’m just really scared she’s lying and might be put off by my confession regardless of what she’s outwardly said to me. As of now everything seems great and she’s acting as normal, but I’m just really afraid of having fucked up whats been a fantastic relationship so far.

Thanks for reading/understanding