When I got with my girlfriend, I started brushing up on TRP as it’s something I’ve casually read in the past. “Don’t wanna fuck this one up,” I told myself. “Better read TRP so you can do this one right.” Well, TRP told me that my girlfriend would leave me if there was a higher branch to swing to. It told me that all women don’t care about you or your love; that they only care about their primal desire for chad thundercock, and that all women are like this (AWALT).

When you throw around those kind of ideologies and start believing them, it didn’t make me a stronger man. It filled me with doubt, worry, and insecurity. I distanced myself from my girlfriend in fear that she’d break my heart. I’d lust after others because I was trying to maintain an “abundance mentality”. And it absolutely destroyed everything.

Almost a week ago, I called my girlfriend solemnly. I told her that we couldn’t see each other anymore. I was conditioned to be amoral to the feelings I had for her, and I thought that I could do better. Now I’m not blaming TRP for everything. Maybe I really am a shitty person and was blind in the moment. But when she asked if I was 100%, I choked, because deep down behind all TRP facades I really do love her. But it was too late. I already broke her heart.

I apologized, I cried with her, I pleaded that I didn’t mean it. But I said the words, and now we’re on a break. She said we might get back together, but every word that comes from her is cold and distant. And I know why. When you have an unstable mindset on romance, TRP will come and wreck a storm. Stay away from it. I didn’t, and see where that landed me.

I’ll always be sorry, and it’ll never fix anything. I have to live with that now. Don’t follow that path I took.