Trust. I have a hard time trusting women from being brainwashed by that sub. To a point where I have a great girl and a great relationship. And I always think she’s up to something even when she shows me her love all the time.

We’re literally obsessed with each other. We have such a good thing going on. I took a lot of good things from that sub. But I feel like I can’t trust any women.

We both have a boundary about flirting with the opposite sex. Now she’s a bartender. So I feel it’s almost part of her job. But she’s very respectful to me. So that doesn’t bother me.

But she also runs events and orders for this place and is in contact with a lot of men. I never found anything I had to worry about besides in the very beginning I saw she asked a guy from her gym if she could take him to lunch bc he lended her a book. I brought it up and she said she was just being nice. And felt so bad. Bc she didn’t see why that wouldn’t be acceptable as she was saying it. After she did and she swore to never do it again.

Anyway. I saw she has Snapchat streak going with multiple ppl. Mostly all women but one is a guy that I don’t know. And this is bothering the hell out of me. I know I shouldn’t be looking through her phone but I was. Bc I don’t trust anyone now. I need to figure out how to stop this. Because it’s unattractive and going to fuck up things. So I’m asking.

How can I stop letting this bother me. I know they say I should be secure with myself. But why would this not bother even the most secure person. Who would want their SO doing this with other men. And worst yet. The fear of it going on and not knowing. Help me get over this please.