So... my dad traveled a lot growing up to support our family, so I was mainly raised by my mom and sister. I actually have had a lot of female friends throughout my life, but I discovered around high school (much to my chagrin) that being able to emotionally relate to women is extremely different from actually being attractive to them.

Thus my descent into resentment, bitterness, PUA began... but it was always tempered, because I'm a pretty friendly person and always had a lot of female friends.

But I just feel like... girls only like me when I am being what I consider to be kind of rude and abrasive. I don't think any girl I'm aware of has ever been interested in me when I'm... myself.

I really stuggle to reconcile this experience with my progressive ideals. What's the next step...? I just feel like I totally lack a framework to put all these pieces together into.