Hey guys. I was pretty involved in TRP around 2012/2013. I read the posts, accepted the dogma, chatted in IRC, read and posted, the whole 9 and a 1/2 yards.

Eventually I stopped reading out of disgust but the mindset continued to plague me for a good couple years. I would say now I've made a pretty full recovery. I'm not entering my fourth month in a relationship with a girl that is very happy and has no signs of stopping. I'm here to share my story and the patterns in my attitudes, health and habits that I believed shaped the arc of my life and why I believe you should stay away from TRP and all of it's users as much as you can.

Part 0: the pre-university years. I was pretty nerdy in high school. First kiss at 15, first sex at 18, first girlfriend at 19. I was often plagued with self-esteem issues and doubts. However there was a period when I went to this bible study, being raised religious and on threat of my parents, and since the girls outnumbered the guys and I'm decent looking, I had some success. The girls liked me even if I had no idea how to woo them lol. But the interactions weren't plagued with bad thoughts.

Part 1: the downfall. I graduated community college and went to a university. I did bad there, got high all the time, zero success with women. Being a gaming addict I spent all of my time gaming and smoking pot. I dropped out after two semesters. Parents didn't want me back. All I could do was move in with a friend.

Part 2: depression, basically. For months I had little ambition, had to be hassled to even get rent together, which already was discounted. Felt suicidal often. Of course I spent massive amounts of time playing games and reading the internet. Being a young guy I was horny so TRP appealed to me.

TRP told me things I wanted to hear. "The world was stacked against me". "Women only like douchebags". Well I was a weak nerd. "Women like dark triad individuals" oh yes, the number one thing a dysfunctional person needs to hear is narcissism is good.

I can tell you I did many stupid things. I tried to sleep with girlfriends who had no interest in me because that's what an "alpha stud" would do. I messaged constantly on OkCupid. Basically I had lost control of my life entirely and felt that if I could take some women then I was winning. And it made me feel "okay" without havng to reform my habits.

I did get sex, but it was pretty bad one night stand shit. Nobody ever called me back. Because I was a douchebag on top of a shitload of one night efforts. Because instead of doing the hard work to make myself attractive ALL the time, I thought it was worth it to study how to make myself attractive for one night.

But eventually I abandoned the forum and stopped feeding in the perverse thoughts and patterns, and went back to community college and got a real job. Though I tried to get girls it was hard, because so much damage had been done to my psyche. It is INCREDIBLY hard to get over TRP thinking. What pushed me over the edge for sure was I had a girlfriend I dated for a month, wen I was still detoxing from TRP but I still had that nasty venom, and while she found me very attractive at times, ultimately my insecurity and douchebaggery were too much and we broke up after a month. And it was pretty hard on me.

What I came to realize though was she liked me in the same way the bible study girls liked me. I met the one-month girl in chemistry, and in chemistry I would joke, I would go around lightheartedly, wasn't afraid to talk to her and her friends, and so on. Instead of having a these negative thoughts about women and their "true" nature, I just let myself be the happy, outgoing person that is inside of me. And it's magnetic. But at the time I still had that nagging voice that told me I was no good, and she would probably cheat on me, just that unhealthy stuff.

But now I'm in university again, doing well, and I have an attractive young girlfriend that, in all honesty, I don't overthink things with. There no longer is a "strategy", there's no scheming and no dogmas. I let myself go how I feel and see things. I let her voice penetrate into my ego and let her explore. And it's very enjoyable. It's a connection I'm glad to have.

A few tips for you new guys trying to break our:

  1. Develop good habits. Seriously. Good hygiene, exercise and eating habits will help you get rid of the self-esteem issues that make TRP bullshit thought cycles possible.

  2. LET OTHER PEOPLE IN. Seriously, let other people get inside your true thoughts and let them criticize your thoughts. It's imperative to realize we are not individuals. We are absolutely primarily social animals. Just read about Harry Harlow and the lit of despair if you don't believe me: social isolation absolutely fucks primates up, and TRP beliefs are not socially tenable. You have to forever remain "outside" groups, or at a minimum disingenuous with people to be a TRPer. It's psychologically taxing.

But seriously, let people in and have open discussions and try to view their side. It will help the healing process and help you learn, and you'll find your place in society. No, it's not being a "beta", it's either you become a part of a social organism or become a social abortion.

Anyway, guys, I'm glad you've at least seen that TRP is bullshit. You have a long road ahead, but it's really the only way out if you want a good life.

You can ask me anything about my life or for advice either in comments or in PM. If I can do anything to keep people away from TRP I will do it.