So in my sheer effort to become a successful man in terms of looks, money, "career" - your typical SMV stuff - I completely isolated myself and lost what I think is 95% of my friends.

By lost, I mean "we're still good", but not "bro good" anymore. I'm way further ahead of all of them in terms of money, cars I drive and other stuff that whenever we're together it's more like an interview than hanging out.

This feeling of hopeless dread inside me triggered yesterday when I realized how rich and outgoing life my current girlfriend has, she's surrounded by way more people, they go out maybe once a month, they hang-out and etc. And I'm left with nothing, materialistic stuff.

Still, I would never choose the other path, but I would be a hypocrite if I told you that I'm happy the way things are now. And sometimes this makes me feel indifferent, hollow inside. How do I establish some balance?