Long story short, after facing a life time of rejection, I've recently been turning towards r/MGTOW to help myself feel better. By telling myself that women aren't worth my time anyway.

But I'm already feeling a distain for women starting to manifest in me. It feels yucky and I don't want to live like this. I still feel empty and broken about my situation from time to time and everytime I do so, I "take red pills" to feel better.

I don't know what to do. Please save me.