I'm struggling with an issue on how to maneuver a relationship with my wife during/after divorce.
Long story short, I half-assed (to put it mildly) RP for close to a year now, never escaping my wife's frame. This led to consistent fighting, and culminated in an argument in which after she filed for divorce yesterday.
I'm now going to be locked in a custody battle and divvying up assets, finding a place to live, continuing therapy to control my anger, etc. because I didn't keep my cool. I don't agree with her leaving, but, from her perspective as a non-believer, I can understand her justification.
She's not a believer, and I am. However, we discussed before marriage that we would raise our child as Christian. She has stuck to this faithfully, regularly attending church and small group. We are both very close to our small group and rely on them, now more than ever.
She texted today and asked that we speak with our pastor on how we can both attend these functions, but indicated that we would likely need to attend separate small groups. We have two services on Sunday, and are a big congregation, so that is less of an issue. However, the small group issue is a struggle for me.
Am I an asshole in that my first reaction is that my support and salvation shouldn't be hindered by her choice to leave?