I'll admit I'm a little bitch for posting about this again, but I wanted the opinion of the MRP demographic.
I'm 30 years old, 6'5, 240 lbs, and about 20-22% BF (down from 25-30% when I met my LTR). Started lifting 18 months ago and got my bench up from 155 to 285. Due to an ankle injury I don't squat more than 225.
I own two businesses, one B&M and one ecommerce, and I am an investor in a few local small businesses. I own a modest home, nothing fancy by any means. My family is one "the" families in our area of about 800k people. I can't go anywhere without someone saying "Hey! You're so-and-so's son right?!"
State of the LTR
She's 26 and we've been exclusive for six months. I have to be honest and disclose that she was part of the rotation for just one month prior to her asking for exclusivity. I dropped my other plates and don't regret it in the slightest. She paid for dates, brought me lunch to work, cleaned my house, and gobbled my ding dong with alacrity. And she still does all of this. She's submissive in and out of the bedroom. Although she rarely initiates, she never denies me sex and we have it at least once a day. If I tell her to get down there and take my load to the neck, she does so. If I want to tie her up, she doesn't say a peep. If I tell her to bring me lunch to work and blow me, she does so.
Surely, this girl is super attracted to me! So I thought.
Although I never really care about n-count unless it's a confirmed outlier, I'll say I "confirmed" her n-count of 10 by seeing old messages with her closest friend where they were exchanging that information.
I'm from the trust-but-verify camp and have no qualms about it. If I'm investing my time and resources in anything, whether it be a girl or a business, I'm absolutely doing my due diligence.
That being said, I've been able to go through her messages ad libitum without her knowing. Turns out, nearly every guy she's dated, hooked up with, or wanted to hook up with was a sub 10% BF juice head. I'm not saying her type was just fit guys, it was 100% dudes on steroids.
One of the messages I saw she sent prior to meeting me was a picture of one these juice heads with the text "He's just so big and strong. He's definitely not boyfriend material so that's why I don't mind just giving myself up to him".
The Truth Hurts
Due to us having mutual friends, I already knew she was into juice heads before we even started dating.
But going through her messages recently, I was hit with the truth in black and white and boy did it suck.
Most of the messages since we started seeing each other were glowing 5-star reviews of me and our relationship... except one.
A few months ago, a friend of hers was asking about me and what I was like. So my girlfriend sends her a couple pictures of us, to which her friend responds "OMG YOU GUYS ARE SO CUTE WTF".
My girlfriends replies "Thanks! :) he's totally not my type, but I think that's a good thing!"
Her friend: "that's DEFINITELY a good thing!"
FUCK THAT NOISE. We all know that "type" = attraction. And clearly this girl isn't physically attracted to me,
Although the LTR is everything a guy could want, she's clearly only "attracted" to two things: how I make her feel, and my resources.
Ergo, I'm beta bux in RP clothing.
It's unfortunate because she really is better than most girls I've been with. I would love to have children in the near future and this girl seemed promising (she's even okay not getting married before having kids); however, it seems like the shelf-life on this one is exceptionally short and it's only a matter of time before she comes to the "sudden" realization that I'm not her type and is no longer attracted to me.
Am I wrong to make that assumption?
If my end goal is to have kids, do I jump ship on this one sooner rather than later?