Suicide note from my deceased GF - proves AWALT. What to make of it?

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January 10, 2020

if u dont know what im talking about u might wanna see my last post. my girl took her life just a little while ago, turns out she left a suicide note but her mom showed it to me only today. im translating the part that was about me.

"dear :myname:, i love you more than anything in this world, but i cannot hold out much longer, the depression is killing me. i cant talk to u, since u cannot save me, but i dont want to leave u clueless so im confessing. u are the love of my life - that being said, i want to confess - i am cheating on u. i dont love him, he just had something in the moment that made me feel a little bit alive. i didnt want u to find out about my condition, so i just talked to him and everything just followed. dont hate me, just remember me, ur the love of my life. even tho u dont, i still hope there is an afterlife and i will see u there and have one more chance for forgiveness. dont let my death be the end of ur feelings. love another one, just keep me in ur thoghts. urs forever, :hername:.

i have mixed feelings, this hurts more than her death, god fucking help me, i love and hate her at the same time. with her mental condition, i cant make anything out of it.

i forgive her. i know no unicorns exist but this shit still hurts. do u think she really spoke from the heart or is this the guilt/depression talking?

no chance for me to guess what was going in her head in the last moments, so i need an opinion from someone whos distant from the situation.

mods, if im messing up the sub by being a lil bitch feel free to remove the post.

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Title Suicide note from my deceased GF - proves AWALT. What to make of it?
Author lolurfucked
Upvotes 109
Comments 85
Date 10 January 2020 01:42 AM UTC (1 year ago)
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[–]RedLegendx128 points129 points  (4 children) | Copy

AWALT indeed, she was mentally ill, but even in her illness the “tingles” persevered.

Don’t dwell on any of this, burn the letter and delete this post after you get your answers, don’t use this to get yourself stuck with a deceased ex.

[–]ellendegenorate39 points40 points  (0 children) | Copy

very sad, but wow, its amazing how awalt this is

so i just talked to him and everything just followed


usually girls don't tell about when they cheated, they don't feel bad, but only when they've been caught they will pretend too.

in this situation, she had nothing to lose. op needs a read.

A scorpion, which cannot swim, asks a frog to carry it across a river on the frog's back. The frog hesitates, afraid of being stung by the scorpion, but the scorpion argues that if it did that, they would both drown. The frog considers this argument sensible and agrees to transport the scorpion, but midway across the river the scorpion stings the frog anyway, dooming them both. The dying frog asks the scorpion why it stung the frog despite knowing the consequence, to which the scorpion replies: "I couldn't help it. It's in my nature."

[–]TheBunk_TB30 points31 points  (0 children) | Copy

Double down. Time to clean it up. It's not on your back. Find people with a sense of fidelity and stability. Bless you, brother.

[–]Dane502 points3 points  (0 children) | Copy

Great advice. Very sad. Poor mom. Horrible but this girls mental disorder was severe. Don’t take any meaning from it as a reflection of yourself.

[–]sjswander9434 points35 points  (0 children) | Copy

Wow that’s some crazy situation you got there. Best of luck with everything. She cheated my man actions over words the “love of her life” is just her hamster rationalizing. Regardless it’s a tough break. I wish you nothing but the best.

[–]throwaway464336657782 points83 points  (18 children) | Copy

I think you should get some professional help with this,see a therapist

[–]Bleu_Cheese_Pursuits-5 points-4 points  (17 children) | Copy

Why? He didn't say he was depressed or had thoughts of harming himself. Death is a part of life, and there are plenty of people out there who are well equipped to handle it without professional help.

[–]Nergaal27 points28 points  (4 children) | Copy

grief is one of those common ways mentally perfectly normal people get major depression. he is grieving for an unicorn.

edit: imagined unicorn

[–]immortal_wound4 points5 points  (0 children) | Copy

It's hard for drastic events like this to happened. He gotta talk it out with someone irl not just here. Shit like that is hard to deal with. But OP shouldn't feel responsible for her death or any guilt whatsoever. It was her choice to make, and her responsibility to hold the LTR, so far she did not do any of those.

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[–]Nergaal1 point2 points  (1 child) | Copy

unicorn = imagined supernatural creature that doesn't exist in real life. has superhuman qualities that nobody can hold.

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[–]Elvis_Death0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

Well stated. Thank you

[–]Bleu_Cheese_Pursuits0 points1 point  (3 children) | Copy

Your argument hinges on the "1% happier and more productive over the next year", and what I am telling you, is that for plenty of people that number is 0%.

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[–]Bleu_Cheese_Pursuits0 points1 point  (1 child) | Copy

"A dentist might make my teeth 0% healthier over the next year if I already brush and floss, but I should still get a checkup anyway."

No, you shouldn't, unless it is free and costs zero time. Your reasoning is tantamount to saying "Well, I inspected the foundation of my house, something I'm totally proficient at, but I am going to waste time and money hiring an exorbitantly expensive professional to tell me what I already know."

"I also think it would be outright silly to assume you're part of the "0%" when your girlfriend committed suicide. No one knows themselves well enough to predict it will have 0 ongoing impact on their happiness."

I never assumed anything. You (and whoever made the top level comment) are the ones who made the assumption that this individual needs professional help a priori of any information indicating that their mental health has been compromised.

What I don't think that you understand is that death is death; whether your gf killed herself, or your parent died of cancer, it is just death. Some people could benefit from working with mental health professionals, others not so much. But you're using a jackhammer to drive a nail when saying that someone absolutely must seek professional help because their gf killed their self. Maybe you would need to, but not everyone is you.

[–]G4RRETT16 points17 points  (1 child) | Copy

because this is a serious emotional wound. If you had a giant open wound on your body or broken body part you should see a doctor to make sure it heals properly and doesn't get infected. The mind/emotional state is really no different

[–]mega_kook3 points4 points  (0 children) | Copy

This right here. We say lift because it makes your body strong, but strength of the mind is equally important. Do whatever it takes to keep going, OP. These are truly shitty circumstances and out of the ordinary even for most RP men.

[–]throwaway46433665770 points1 point  (1 child) | Copy

I have lost a friend last year and the thought of him laying six feet under still makes me want to throw up since I was the one who buried him.

Imagine what he might feel with this.

[–]Bleu_Cheese_Pursuits0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

I've buried multiple friends. It gets easier each time. Imagine that. My point wasn't that he shouldn't seek help. My point was that he should seek help if and only if he needs it. I don't understand why that is such a controversial opinion.

[–]Andrew5432152 points53 points  (9 children) | Copy

You need to walk away and forget her.

“The moment you know you cannot walk away, you must walk away.”

[–]lolurfucked[S] 8 points9 points  (8 children) | Copy

elaborate maybe?

[–]Andrew543215 points6 points  (1 child) | Copy

If you’re stuck on a bitch then you must resolve to have restraint and focus your attention in a world where she does not exist. Which coincidentally is today. Do what you must for the people she left behind, better to be a pillar of strength than a pool of tears or some such saying, but after that move the fuck on. You’re alive and she is not, nothing worse can befall her, you could have it worse and you will if you don’t get up and move.

Options is your power (that is cultivated in abundance) and your trump is the ability to walk away. The moment you lose that, you are a slave. Whether she breaths or not is immaterial. It is about the choice and resulting conclusions you are making about you right now.

[–]SmileBot-20200 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

trump bad

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[–]lolurfucked[S] 9 points10 points  (4 children) | Copy

are u fucking kidding me right now?

[–]lazydogg91 point2 points  (0 children) | Copy

what was the above comment that got deleted?

[–]jzekyll6-1 points0 points  (2 children) | Copy

Nope. She cheated. Toll paid.

[–]muricanwerewolf17 points8 points  (0 children) | Copy

Gross dude.

[–]lolurfucked[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children) | Copy

alright then boss

[–]ArcangeloPT46 points47 points  (2 children) | Copy

Move on mate. Mourn but for your own sake move on ASAP.

Not intending to be a dick but, deceased or not, depressed or not, she still cheated on you so you know what to do.

[–]lolurfucked[S] 17 points18 points  (1 child) | Copy

not dwelling. the emotional side of me is dying, but slowly. thats why i asked here

[–]Wildfire4817 points18 points  (0 children) | Copy

Sorry man, it's okay to mourn over this. We're all human beings here. Just don't let this dwell over you for more than a few months, nothing else you can do about this anymore anyway.

[–]moresmarterthanyou18 points19 points  (3 children) | Copy

There is a huge lack of symathy on the sub here. Your a man but allow yourself to grieve. Its ok to have feelings and your gonna have alot of them right now. Your GF is gone and she cheated on you. Take some time to yourself, put yourself in some hobbies, and as time goes on, what others are suggesting here will happen, you'll be okay, youll move on, there will be others. All the best bro.

[–]1Terminal-Psychosis13 points14 points  (2 children) | Copy

"You mean the world to me", right before "I've been fucking other guys". And she knew he'd read after she is DEAD.

The psycho deserves zero sympathy.

Grieving for WHAT? Her totally trying to fuck him over mentally, from beyond the grave?

OP IS ok, right now. He dodged a bullet, bigtime, and better watch out if he's attracted to such massively manipulative, toxically sick people, that he doesn't get hit with the next one!

Playing into the oh poor meeee shit is counter-productive. Just what she wanted, and seems to have gotten.

Sick, sick game she was playing. don't feed into it.

OP doesn't need "sympathy" any more than she gave him. He needs to grow up, pretty damn quick too. That shit is completely deranged and off the wall unhealthy.. literally, deadly unhealthy.

FAR better to tell him he's lucky he didn't get sucked down with her, and next time he sees the signs of such...


Really, sounds like he's so far gone, nothing TRP has to offer can help. Dude needs some psychological help to even survive, if this is the kind of girl he's getting with, and then feeling sorry for, for some reason.

[–]tonivevo2 points3 points  (0 children) | Copy

If you don’t process trauma like this, then you won’t be able to live a happy life.

You gotta think about shit like this to get over it.

I don’t know if you have a role model, but Alpha male strategies, Dan Bilzerian or even the toughest motherfucker would have to think about a scenario like this.

[–]janaheyiloveyou0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

Exactly.... Sympathy? Does he mean suicidal depression?

[–]DeficientDeity9 points10 points  (0 children) | Copy

Please see a therapist dude. This woman was a cunt. Cheating confession in a suicide note? For fuck sakes.

[–]ThinSpiritual20 points21 points  (4 children) | Copy

Remember when a woman says something, it reflects their emotions AT THAT MOMENT.

"I love you." --> I love you NOW. Same thing for "I hate you."

She wrote this under depression. She said she loved you but also admitted to cheating... a lot of hamstering going on. Seriously, if you step out from the "suicide note" frame and look at this post (which is exactly what we're helping you do), you can see the cognitive dissonance.

Move on bro, none of this was your responsibility.

[–]CduckTron0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

This comment op....

[–]peaox0 points1 point  (2 children) | Copy

So you don’t think she really loved him?

[–]ThinSpiritual13 points14 points  (1 child) | Copy

Well, you may have a different definition of love.

But how do you love someone when you exclude them from your life?

i cant talk to u, since u cannot save me

She decided for OP without giving him any choice, then went on to fuck someone else and justified her cheating with "I didn't want to burden you with my condition so fucking someone else is the lesser evil".

In reality, that was a selfish act that satisfied her own condition and her ego-hamster, and caused more pain for OP -- her suicide also framed OP into this extremely passive and guilty condition. Even her confession prior to suicide was just a release for herself. I doubt she'd have the courage to confess if she decided to NOT die.

It sucks to deal with the death of someone you love, but it's extremely important to remain rational in times like this. Glean signal from the noise and realize that it's not OP's fault AT ALL. OP is just a victim.

[–]peaox3 points4 points  (0 children) | Copy

No I agree with you. I don’t think she loved him at all.

Was just curious to see what your thoughts were and whether you think it’s possible to cheat and love someone at the same time.

Godspeed OP.

[–]mysticplaces4 points5 points  (2 children) | Copy

”You’re the love of my life but I’m gonna borrow this dick for the foreseeable future. Also I’m going to open up my heart to him, I’ll tell him everything. But you’re the love of my life. See you in the afterlife.”

[–]volvostupidshit5 points6 points  (1 child) | Copy

Bitch can't stop toying with OP even when she is trying to die.

[–]jaznex0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

even in death she fucks him up omfg

[–]cyn1calassh0le4 points5 points  (0 children) | Copy

Jeez brother, I'm sorry you're going this. Honestly, as tough as it may seem right now, this is all for the best. Be thankful a woman like this didn't drag you down with her, depression was probably the least of her mental illnesses. Suicide, especially by a woman, takes an intense level of mental un-wellness to commit and follow through on.

do u think she really spoke from the heart or is this the guilt/depression talking?

Women, and people and in general, say a lot of shit; You can only judge them ultimately by their actions.

I'd thoroughly evaluate your vetting process in the future though. To miss this kind of behavior either takes master manipulation on her end or ignoring of signs or past events on your part. I've been in a similar situation before on my end I know looking back now there were plenty of red flags I just glossed over because my dick was hard.

[–]legitniga3 points4 points  (0 children) | Copy

Fuck, that’s dark. Sorry man, sad situation all around.

[–]jvn05103 points4 points  (0 children) | Copy

OP - you will learn and grow from this more than you can imagine. Stay strong and ignore the a-holes on this sub.

My last ltr told me she suffered with depression 9months in. We stayed together for another 6 months and ultimately the depression won and she broke up with me. Even though I loved her and she loved me, the daily pain was too much for her. And even though I was crushed, ultimately I understood the fate of the relationship was out of my control. There’s nothing I could have done to save it.

Life is so fucked up and humans can be so twisted. All you can do is keep bettering yourself everyday.

I’ll pray for you tonight

[–]unnatural_by_nature3 points4 points  (0 children) | Copy

Suicide (when examined amorally) is the single most selfish (again, from a purely amoral perspective, not judgmental) action one can take.

Remember this when you think about why she told you she cheated on you: she did it solely to make herself feel better before she killed herself, not because she actually cared about you. There’s no other reason to admit something that could have been literally taken to the grave.

Take some time and really think about this. Her actions don’t match her words. Love of her life but she cheated on you? One of these is not like the other.

[–][deleted] 4 points5 points  (0 children) | Copy

"i dont love him, he just had something in the moment that made me feel alive" -- TEXTBOOK

The self justification never ceases to amaze me. In a fucking suicide note here. Dear God.

[–]user201806202 points3 points  (0 children) | Copy

The only thing I think is worth analyzing is howbyour behavior might have changed over the course of the relationship.

Trp says that men often get attached and change... And that might play into this.

But fundamental... Her death is not your fault. Not just because she was in the wrong. And she was.

But because depression, suicidal depression works it's way into a person like a splinter in the mind. The feeling that life is unbearable, not because of any specific event, but just generally filled with pain that cannot be fixed, except in brief moments of joy.

That overarching pain shoves the splinter in deeper every day. And it takes effort to hold back the crushing wave of despair. Eventually, the effort is too much... And the pain has to end.

So nothing you could have done would have prevented this.

Mourn, yes and then move on.

Good luck buddy.

[–]bradwbowman2 points3 points  (0 children) | Copy

She was sick man. That isn’t your fault.

[–]Distractingyou2 points3 points  (0 children) | Copy

Mourn her but she was crazy i think she is speaking truth when she said you were the alpha of her life and after her stupid desicion of trying to hypergamy to a beta she discovered it wasnt as alpha as you and this letter shows she had guilt, i think this a case of showing repentance she discovered she was doubting you which was stupid but yh i think its a case of can some people be forgiven, can you forgive she doubted you. Idk if i would do it but yh i think she is speaking the truth when she said you were her alpha. Anyways at some point you need to move on in her crazy she spectee you to always be mourning her i suppose cause her crippling depression made her do some crazy shit i think like every human she made her rights and wrong but in all case at the end of her life she always saw you as an alpha and the thought is what counts. She disrespected you and thats something she didnt forgive herself. All i have to say is this wasnt your fault dude her crazyness is something she always had and well yh i would like to see if you can give us more reasons why she committed suicide.

[–]tuan321bin2 points3 points  (0 children) | Copy

Bruh I can empathize with people who suffered from mental illnesses, but this is messed up yo

[–]Elvis_Death4 points5 points  (0 children) | Copy

This is NOT your fault.

This is a real traumatic scenario.
The potential mindfuck could damage/derail you for years. Perhaps professional dirction would help you navigate the unfamiliar waters of trauma. Regrettably most "professional" help these days is dogshit. The entire psychology industry is feminized and even the Male therapists are subservient to the feminine imperative.

Dont do anything crazy. Stay chill. Search for male trauma therapists in your area. Meet 3 of them. Choose the best fit.

This is serious, treat it like a real physical injury.

[–]drcube20006 points7 points  (1 child) | Copy

Take her at her word. She loved you and she was weak. From what I see, there's really not much more to make of it, and sorry, but you're not going to get any more clarity. Don't kill yourself trying to figure it out because you know you'll never really know.

[–]qwertyuiop1112225 points6 points  (0 children) | Copy

Don't kill yourself

[–]youcantstopmyzed1 point2 points  (0 children) | Copy

Who cares? She’s gone. Keep living your life and stay away from ltrs.

[–]xxx69harambe69xxx1 point2 points  (0 children) | Copy

i can't even troll, this is just sad, sorry you had to deal with this bro

[–]Hubblenobbin1 point2 points  (0 children) | Copy

dont let my death be the end of ur feelings. love another one, just keep me in ur thoghts.

Didn't want him to move on even after traumatizing him, that's fucked.

[–]genital-love1 point2 points  (0 children) | Copy

that's pretty real man..."she's not urs it's just ur turn"

[–]bestsparkyalive0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

Suicide, murder, selfish acts. I’m sorry for what you’re going through but move on.

[–]frognads0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

Definitely see a therapist kid. If this is true then I think it's a bit too heavy for this sub and requires professional attention.

[–]Nergaal0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

Dude, as I've told you last time, learn to vet for LTR. Anybody who is suicidal (or even just joking about it) has many other red flags that YOU CHOSE to ignore. Don't feel shit for her, feel shit for you for not picking up on the red flags earlier.

Would you prefer to have her still alive and possibly get kids with someone who you didn't realize was suicidal and sluttying up on you?

The positive side is that likely, the guilt of cheating contributed to this. A lot of average girls are encouraged by the mainstream media to slutty up and ride the CC, and when their conscience hits them, they collapse. It's a coping mechanism out of which a slut can only walk away if she convinces herself that she is either not a slut or it's ok to be a slut (won't work when she sees the man near her have a higher moral caliber - i.e.: before my ex hit me with the cheating story she tried to encourage me to cheat on her).

You continue to see her as an unicorn, and this is somewhat expected when grieving. It's the survivor guilt syndrome acting up. Won't be easy, but deep down you know "the truth". Pick yourself up and get onto your mission.

[–]1Terminal-Psychosis0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

Geezus dude, what a completely toxic relationship that would have been. Holy crap, no matter how great the pussy, it's NOT worth dealing with that.

Be glad you didn't get into that insanity any deeper. Totally twisted:

"You mean the world to me!" and, "I've been fucking other guys.". because (insert turbo-hamster here).

You cannot actually still have feelings for this girl? o0

Wake UP! GROW UP! You need no answers, just stop trying to feel guilty over dodging a bullet.

You meant NOTHING to her. Not one little bit. Used you like a tool, and left a letter in the hopes someone would cry for her. Massively manipulative.

Watch out for warning signs in the future. Don't get involved with this type, least no more than a raunchy weekend. You gotta do some looking at yourself, and work on building healthy boundaries.

This girls had none. Minus even.

[–]AshyBoneVR40 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

This is gonna sound fucked up, but I'm just bein honest... Reading that note would be an amazing way for me to get over my girlfriend killing herself. Personally I'd stop caring about my "girlfriend" after reading that. If she was still alive and she told that, that's the end of our relationship. In this case, she's dead, there's literally nothing else for you to do about it. You can't talk to her, you cant get any other amounts of closure, that's it. Don't stress over shit you can't control. Just try to move on the best you can.

dont let my death be the end of ur feelings. love another one, just keep me in ur thoghts.

Bold of her to think any thoughts of her WON'T be accompanied by, "She cheated on me, then killed herself." Honestly two of the worst thing someone who "cares about you" could do to you.

[–]theUnBannableHulk0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

Dunno why you’re over analyzing.

She betrayed you cuz she’s a chick.

Now she dead.

Karma’s a bitch.

Move on.

[–]Musicgoon0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

I'm sorry you're dealing with this Bro. That's some really rough shit. And you're not being a little bitch at all.

Now two things AWALT. Hypergamy is a motherfucker and she was scandalous. It does sound to me like she was BPD. They usually are promiscuous and will threaten suicide or go through with it just to hurt someone.

Please go see someone for this trauma. You need to be happy, but you don't want this to consume you. It will take a while to really feel ok but just know you can and will get over this.

P.S. go lift. Workout hard. It's a great coping strategy and cathartic.

[–]furcryingoutloud0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

OP, you've been told to seek help. I agree that you should. Not because you might not make it, or you're weak. Talking about this with someone will most definitely help you put things into perspective. Therapy really does help.

Having said that, from what she wrote, she seems to have been really selfish. To the end. She was more worried about clearing her conscience than the damage this information could have done to you. Or maybe she was sure that this confession would have made you grieve less.

We can't know what her reasoning was for this. But there is something you can do about it. Reason this out. It is no surprise when someone cheats. But you can minimize the hurt if you cheapen her actions. Not by being mad at her for cheating, or for even telling you this in a suicide note, but by accepting that this is normal behavior and you basically should not give it any weight. Not only under your circumstances, but ever.

You really should be seeing a therapist who can help you find your own way through this.

[–]StrangeInstructions0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

Just implementing redpill into my life as of the last couple months. one thing i know for sure is that none of this is your fault. Dont think for a second you were ever the cause. I agree with everyone here.. you need to forget about it burn the letter and delete this post. Remember Actions speak louder than words.

[–]Magnum9940 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

Don't for a moment blame yourself. It's very probable she killed herself because of that guy not because she cheated on you. Move on.

[–]AnneStaz0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

Glad to hear you can forgive her in this time, shows a lot of maturity bro. Keep your head up

[–]tonivevo0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

Okay, dude.

Thank you for sharing this. I understand that you hate her and of course love her. This will take time to make the best out of it.

This is the shit that will make a man out of you. These hard times. Your heart must be shattered.

Take a month of, meditate, write and deepen your understanding of female nature.

Ask yourself why you did chose her and what personality traits you have that attract a girl like her.

[–]Mr-Ed2090 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

I think this is beyond the scope of this sub.

Your gf was sick, mentally corrupted to the point that she took her own life; if i were you id force yourself not to base any future life decisions on anything she ever said to you. Don't get bitter or resentful with AWALT; most women don't kill themselves - she was an outlier with issues beyond your scope of control and you can't take any responsibility for what happened. She was just a sick chaotic person who paid the ultimate price.

For your own ego sake, even her cheating could not bring her happiness or contentment. She didn't have to tell you about it and it seems much of her actions were based on wanting to 'watch the world burn'.

It's sad but you don't owe her any sympathy. Get the help you need and a few years down the line you can reflect on it more sanely.

[–]Itshighnoon7770 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

Don't come to TRP for something like this. This is beyond any of us and I recommend you seek professional help, you need a professional you can speak with IRL. This is so sad man. Good luck brother.

[–]scorpionkg0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

Man, I feel for your lost. Nothing in this moment is more important then your healthy. Forgive her and let her go, it was her nature. (Woman nature). She is right, in you she found love and friendship, this is not for everybody! You can be proud for being the one that she had those experiences with. Move with your live and put you on your mental point of origin.

Best wishes

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[–]lolurfucked[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

not gonna dwell on this for years buddy, thanks a lot

[–]imtheoneimmortal0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

All girls are the same

Juice wrld is you?

Lucid dreams is your song man Sorry for that

[–]drsherbert-1 points0 points  (2 children) | Copy

How the fuck did you not see the signs? You had no idea she was cheating?

[–]TacoMedic10 points11 points  (0 children) | Copy

A lot of people are really good at cheating tbf.

She killed herself, so she was mentally ill enough that there were probably no signs to see.

"She's ignoring me, maybe she's cheating." may have turned into "She's ignoring me, but this is how she's always been, she's just independent."

I know TRP likes to put all women and men into specific circles, but people are different and complicated and not everyone is the same.

Best of luck to you OP, this must suck for you. Make sure you go to the gym and work on yourself.

[–]lolurfucked[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children) | Copy

no. what a surprise

[–]Dboy2233-1 points0 points  (0 children) | Copy

Is this shit forreal?

[–]Distractingyou-1 points0 points  (0 children) | Copy

I think your fear is after all this time and all your development you feel like if you forgive her you may become a cock, you arent dude and the proof is her letter and her death crazy people always say the truth

You can kill a man, but you can't kill an idea.

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