if u dont know what im talking about u might wanna see my last post. my girl took her life just a little while ago, turns out she left a suicide note but her mom showed it to me only today. im translating the part that was about me.
"dear :myname:, i love you more than anything in this world, but i cannot hold out much longer, the depression is killing me. i cant talk to u, since u cannot save me, but i dont want to leave u clueless so im confessing. u are the love of my life - that being said, i want to confess - i am cheating on u. i dont love him, he just had something in the moment that made me feel a little bit alive. i didnt want u to find out about my condition, so i just talked to him and everything just followed. dont hate me, just remember me, ur the love of my life. even tho u dont, i still hope there is an afterlife and i will see u there and have one more chance for forgiveness. dont let my death be the end of ur feelings. love another one, just keep me in ur thoghts. urs forever, :hername:.
i have mixed feelings, this hurts more than her death, god fucking help me, i love and hate her at the same time. with her mental condition, i cant make anything out of it.
i forgive her. i know no unicorns exist but this shit still hurts. do u think she really spoke from the heart or is this the guilt/depression talking?
no chance for me to guess what was going in her head in the last moments, so i need an opinion from someone whos distant from the situation.
mods, if im messing up the sub by being a lil bitch feel free to remove the post.