i got redpilled a year ago.
there are plates and all but in my redpill reality i found a woman who was worth giving a shot.
been 6 months since we've been dating and she took her life last night. dunno why, never would have thought such a (seemingly) happy inidvidual could do that.
i would be lying if i said she was insitnificant to me (even tho i told myself to never get attached again to a woman, even if she seemed perfect). i grew quite fond of her and boom. no reason, no cause.
this shit happened to me 3 years ago. my girl died in a car accident and i survived.
i was bluepilled back then and it hurt me more than it should have. i dont want to bitch but this stupid/unrealistic thought keeps popping up. if i were to get close to somebody - this is how it ends.
i spent last 8 hours sitting by her coffin. sorry for the details but im fuckin lost.
whats the redpill way to go about losing a woman?
no need to pull punches. lay it on me.
its a human thing that we suffer like this but..
should i never ever get close to another one?
keep myself strictly a plate man?
for the sake of not getting hurt again?
do i choose the wrong kind?..
just bad luck and move on?
what would a redpill role model do?
cause im fucking tired of being lost.