Hi The Red Pill,

Allow me to introduce myself and thank this sub-reddit for all of the great advice, information, and unplugging happening here. While I've been familiar with the Seduction sub-reddit and Game in general it was just a few days ago that I discovered TRP through u/JayGatsbyFan's posts. I would say I was already somewhat on the path to this mentality but this is definitely a case of the teacher appearing when needed.

After many years as AFC I discovered PUA and Game when a friend lent me his copy of "The Game." This was a couple of years ago now. Not having been terribly consistent at practicing game and having viewed running game as more of a hobby, I've only more recently been able to acheive a mLTR lifestyle with a rotating body of women. I don't necessarily focus so much on opening sets as I do at running natural game and generally just focusing on working on my inner game and presenting myself as an Alpha. Seems to have worked pretty well because up until recently women have been coming to me in various different ways. I have yet to bed what I would consider a 9 or 10 but I've dating some pretty solid 8s. For a while there I was pretty confidently and assertively pursuing attractive women whenever they made themselves available to me.

This brings me to the reason I am here. I went soft. I regressed to a blue pill mentality when I met this solid 8.5 four months ago and we 'fell in love' or so I thought. A solid 10 in the bedroom and the best fuck I've had consistently ever....my brain went full beta for her. Cue crazy emotional tempests. Despite my best efforts to simultaneously assuage and set clear boundaries (i.e. hold frame) I was sunk. While we weren't dating exclusively, she was definitely my main plate and borderline gf. I dodged the commitment bullet with her, but just barely.

There's probably a lot here to break down and I'll probably save it for a FR in the parent sub-reddit. Suffice it to say in the past two weeks two of my other plates have dropped me. And I broke up with the crazy emotional tempestuous one. However I find myself nursing a single remaining plate, have some serious emotional wounds, my confidence is shaken, and have no new prospects. Sure, I have a few orbiters who, after mostly neglect, I may be able to bring off the bench. I hadn't realized how much I had invested in the one relationship thinking if I could just get through to the other side of it. I thought, "if I can just get this woman to calm down, I'll have a consistently mind-blowing fuck for months...maybe years to come." I mean...it just kept getting better. She could push my buttons sexually, even those I didn't know I had, better than anyone I'd ever met before. Do I have a serious case of one-itis? You bet I do. Was her bullshit worth me nearly losing myself to the relationship? Not on your life. So, I did what any reasonable man could do, when I realized I was sinking, and I abandoned ship.

I've been devouring the all of the side-bar and the meat of TRP for the past few days. I realize a lot of where I went wrong and I just wish I'd known about this before. Basically a lot of it was one massive shit test. A test which I failed. It's possible, although not likely given her level of crazy, that I might have been able to salvage the relationship with some serious Dread game and other tactics. Life though sometimes is the best teacher. Fail better, as they say.

So, it's time to lift myself out of the mire of depression and beta I allowed myself to sink into and start putting some of TRP to good use. A humble and generous thank you to those who have done the hard work to create the content of this sub-reddit. You have given me the tools I need to rebuild myself better. A paradigm shift in my thinking has occurred. There is no "game" anymore, only the truth of sexual fitness and being a Man.

gentleViking

Edit: spelling, grammar, punctuation, etc.