I'm the guy who's ex g/f threw away 4 years and a lifetime to give her virginity to some random at a business camp. (see my post history if you want to know more).

I originally posted on /r/relationships and I got a lot of feedback from people over there. However the admins of that sub are just whack in how they run things. They deleted my posts and would lock my thread and even told me to stop posting about this on there (I had only posted twice) so a site I thought was supposed to help me didn't do anything.

However because of those posts I was contacted by several guys who said they were from the red pill. Guys that were telling me their story's and letting me know I wasn't alone and what they did to get better.

My Uncle also gave me proper advice as well.

I looked at the main site and devoured the side bar. I bought and read the rational male and I have been taking in as much of the site as I can get.

I have been lifting solid for a month now. Even though I have moved into college I was able to immediately get into the college's gym here and even have the benefit of a trainer for free as long as I can be here between 5-7 which I can.

Guys I can already feel a difference, my cloths are looser at the waist line but getting tight in the chest and arms. I've added 7 pounds to my reps and I've upped my cardio to 35 min. a day.

My goal is to adding 20 lbs by Christmas and change up the cardio to 20 elliptical and 20 stair climber.

I have changed my diet, right now I am doing all low carb stuff and drinking protein shakes at both morning time and right after I work out.

Right now I am in full monk mode. Meaning I am not looking at or giving two shits about women here at college. I've had a couple already give me their numbers and want to text but I'm not ready yet and I have to get my mind in tune with my body.

When I come out of this mode, again probably around Christmas time, I intend to be a fucking black knight slayer.

I still have a lot and I mean a lot of work to do on that end though. I have been brought up all of my life to want relationship/house/family all of that bullshit. So its not something I can just do away with in one month.

Its getting easier but I have to make sure that I don't make the immediate mistake of going after a girl and actually trying to beta treat her into a relationship. I have zero intention of EVER and I mean FUCKING EVER giving anyone that type of power over me ever again.

One month ago I was so low that I'm not going to lie and say that I thought about ending it for the briefest of time. I never would have done it but it was so hard initially that's where I felt like going. But now I'm not healed all the way but thanks to this site, this information and frankly to Rollo Tomassi I am on my way to a better me. One day I may even look back and be happy she did this to me, I'm certainly not there yet though.

As to her, fuck her I don't give two shits about her and I have made it clear t my family and friends that I do not want to hear about her or be told anything about her nor are they to pass anything on from her to me. I will hang up the phone and not answer any return calls from anyone trying to do so if they are family and will call them back when I deem fit. And if a friend does it then they have been told in no uncertain terms that they will be former friends. However all of our friends stand with me on this, even her female friends took my side.

Anyway, thank you from the bottom of my heart. The fucker who asked me if I wanted to be the guy who loved a girl for four years but got nothing but heart ache or be the guy who banged two chicks at camp in a week lit the match that fired my fuse and I have no doubt he was from the red pill