Hello Ladies.

I am posting an update. It's a bit of anonymous gush... since I am privately celebrating my achievements.

I achieved my weight loss goal. From 72kg at 16 to 55kg at 20. I am following a gym routine of 4 days a week weight lifting, some cardio and basic yoga. Meditating 5 minutes a day which is basic but building up. Started taking multi vitamins and collagen and I look forward to taking Omega 3 ( i live in England so there is minimal sunlight for my daily requirement of vitamin d - I do the best I can with my food so using these as supplementation). My skin and hair are at the best state I think that they have ever been by adhering to my beauty routine.

My teeth too however I will be upgrading to an electric toothbrush and experimenting with some at home teeth whitening before getting braces to correct my bite.

I am still struggling to adhere to a study schedule though. I have attended every lecture this semester and have done most of my readings (my focus is to boost my GPA). This is building off last year when I struggled to attend lectures and fell behind due to too many commitments.

I am here to say it is possible! The feminine journey is possible ladies! I am unrecognisable to those who knew me at 16. I was unhappy, chubby, masculine and lonely! Now I am happier, fitter, more feminine and still occasionally lonely. There has been progress. 4 years of ups and downs. Hells and heavens but I am thankful. We can all do this. It takes discipline, habit and perseverance to become who we want to be.

The feminine journey is different for every woman. Mine has been tough but I am shocked to see how far I have come.

My next goals to focus on...

My academics (as a goal) Building my body's definition and shape Better regulating my emotions

Things I will be trying for aesthetic development (for those who are curious about tips and tricks):

Red light therapy Teeth whitening Yoga once a week

I am sharing this with all of you because unfortunately I don't have many people in my life who would see this an achievement and would be happy for me. I have heard that when you begin working on yourself you find out truly who is in this life with you and on your team and the answer for me has been not very many. It can be discouraging for you to change habits and find others criticising or ridiculing you. I found those in my inner circles (family mostly) critical of my dietary changes and my gym routine but use that as fuel. My partner loves the changes and improvements and a close friend of mine benefits from the knowledge I share and vice versa. Pursue your feminine goals privately and share them with people who will be genuinely happy for you.

Ladies, anything to gush over today? Or recently? I'd love to hear some of your stories: brag it's alright to be fond or proud of yourself for a moment. Especially if you have no one who can be that positive reinforcement.

(This was written on a rushed journey).