I went to my friends Halloween party last night and a beautiful, hot, big titty, big booty bitch was eyeing me the whole time she got there. I isolated and escalated with her. Meanwhile, my girlfriend showed up late after she got off second shift. By that time, I was buzzed from various party favors and ignoring her calls and text as I got intimate with this sexy girl in a prisoner costume outside. My girl apparently saw me outside making out with this chick. When I came back in, my girl was standing there dumbfounded saying “you really doing this?”. I said “yes I am” and I left with the other girl to go back to my place. After I fucked the girl, I started to come back to my senses (post nut clarity) and realized I just blatantly cheated on my LTR in her face.

After I sent the other girl home in an Uber, I called my girl and told her, “I fucked the chick and she meant nothing to me. I still care about you, but if you’re gonna hold this shit over my head for the rest of our relationship you should just leave me now, because I’m not gonna let you hold it over my head forever”. This isn’t the first time I’ve admitted to having sex with another girl to her. I had another random chick I met on tinder blow me right before I met up with her last year and I told her what happened after she wondered why I wasn’t sexually excited to see her.

As I’m sitting here this morning, finally sobered up, I’m thinking I really like the relationship I have with my girl and I do care about her, but I’m also thinking I just possibly damaged our relationship beyond repair over me having one impulsive 5 minutes of sex with a hot chick that I’ll probably never speak to again. We’ve been together for 2 years.

Should I just end it now before she possibly seeks revenge and goes and fucks someone else to get back at me, or holds it over my head from now to eternity? I like my girl a lot, but the sexual passion we had has been slowly fading over the last year. I don’t wanna end it, but I’m completely willing to deal with the consequences of losing her over what happened last night. I just wanted you guys’s input.