TL;DR Better late than never.

Guys I was born with a lot of gifts. Gifts the Blue Pill told me would make my dating life a breeze. Tall, smart, good looking, and Alpha. Wait? What? Alpha? Since I took TRP, guess what? I recently found out that being Alpha in every aspect of life except dating and with women, made me Beta.

How did it happen? Year one to Year 12-domineering Mom in a single parent household. Listened to her, grandma, aunt, etc. “Do everything women want and they will love you forever” Year 12-17-raging Alpha Dad married to step mom. Dad cheats on step mom and gets caught. Whole house blows up. I'm now separated from half siblings and living in a run-down trailer park. Dad taught me how to fight, lead, solve problems, self-educate, survive in the wild. I admired those things about him but hated his destruction of my family unit.

I vowed to never be like Dad when it came to women, so I Blue Pilled it up and floundered for 23 years when it came to dating. I heard about TRP a while back and because it reminded me of Dad, I said no way. Plus I was Alpha (in my mind), so TRP could not be the solution to my problem. Adding some PUA tricks seemed "beneath me". The gifts are a curse without TRP. The gifts also saved me from 23 years of incel hell. Good and bad I guess. If you’re lucky, not having the gifts will drive you to TRP faster.

I got dumped about a year ago from a 3 year LTR. I’m 39 years old and still the disposable boyfriend. Still didn't get it. I went MGTOW out of pain, picked up a 2nd job, since I decided that I would be better off taking the time I would be spending money on women and just earning more money. I was. Money is awesome.

2nd job is security at a bar in a college town. I'm still MGTOW. I notice something however. Women start approaching me and giving me their number, wholly unsolicited. So I step out of MGTOW and see what I can do. Still crash and burn though. Still a Blue Pill Beta. Still not getting it.

Lost in youtube one day, I stumble across an antifem conservative female political blogger. She talks about the benefit of TRP. Yeah guys. A woman on youtube convinced me to look into TRP. Here I am. I test. It works. There’s a fine line between stubborn and stupid.

Mind=Blown. I'm still learning, still testing, but I have more prospects now than I've had in 20 years of relying on just looks, fitness, and morals. My biggest challenge so far is the hamster visualization. Thinking about it makes me laugh, sometimes out loud, when I can see I’ve triggered the hamster with a date. She asks, “What’s so funny?” I just say, “Nothing, inside joke” and then start dying of laughter more because my mystery just sent hamster into a full caffeinated fit. I’m making the problem work in my favor.

I’m still working on the sidebar. There’s a lot of volume and a lot to digest. Reprogramming 22 years of adulthood topping 18 years of dysfunctional childhood emasculation ain’t easy. You won’t be seeing posts from me for a while. All I can say is don’t be like me. If you’re not surrounded by prospects begging for it right now, you’re doing it wrong, gifts or no gifts. Get your ass into the side bar and sort your shit out.