I'll keep it short and toasty - I fucked up. But hear me out, this isn't another unicorn circle jerk session. I tried plating a female colleague for a few months but she wouldn't budge. She's (23F) a muslim girl, wears a headscarf, the works, she was just awfully sweet, respectful and hides her nice ass which for me was a mindblowing turnon. After about 3 months of me flirting my balls off, we started going out and one thing led to another, we were dating for a year. Fuck. She was a virgin, she wanted to keep herself till marriage, but is in love with me and we had a blood fest on the sheets which to this day I feel a tad guilty about. She's pretty much perfect wife material: she's financially independent, when i come to her house she has a meal ready, has cookies or some awesome shit made, and gives me tons of backrubs. Seen as she hasn't had anyone in her life before she's pretty much... clueless when it comes to sex and I was used to some very rough fucks, but that's a minor issue and is changing for the better. She's realistic, caring and very good with keeping finances, in our city she's appeared in newspapers for doing charity work.
My question fellas as I am desperate. I thought marriage was as stupid as paying to step into a bear trap. But I'm liking the idea of having this girl around and I've vetted the shit out of her. She's a practicing muslim, I am too on paper but I have nothing to do with the religion, which means we'd be getting married in terms of Sharia, no "losing half your shit" kinda shtick. She's really in love. And when I say really in love, I mean greeting me at the door like she was my dog, and taking off my shoes and giving me random ass footrubs to the point where I feel like this is a prank. From your perspective as folks who have dived into the risk pool; should i give this a try?
She has never asked me, but I know culturally if I dont marry her I will break her heart for good and I'll have messed her up for taking her virginity before marriage. Im kind of in the shit here. Anything is appreciated, really. Thanks guys!