I have friends I go out with occasionally (like once a month) and I’m a part of 2 extracurriculars and a plate along with my game being tight enough to get occasional ONS from solo clubbing but I still feel miserable almost every day. I crave being in a friend group and having good company on a day to day basis. Usually day to day I’m just grinding and socializing (and my social skills suck now due to barely having any friends too)hoping I’ll eventually find some friend’s.

I’m also in college and seeing everyone happy and social makes things even worse. Whenever I’m on campus I feel so isolated like I’m an outsider. I’ve been included in friend groups before and it felt like pure euphoria almost 24/7, even when I had troubles things were easier to deal with but eventually those groups fell apart and I’m all alone again. I’ve tried really hard the past few months to find a new group but it’s extremely hard. And my social skills aren’t as smooth now so I tend to make Alot more social mistakes which leads people to not really care for me as much

Is feeling this way normal? Or am I just needy and have a bad mentality?