Hello, my problem is a very odd one, tho many here who have had the same medical issue might relate.
I've had obstructive sleep apnea all my life and only found out at the end of high school.I had surgery done for it and literally everything changed.
Before the surgery I was someone with no energy, who couldn't even maintain a good posture, had terrible skin, I was so tired and depressed all the time that I didn't even shave or cut my hair.My parents were very neglectful and people made fun of me at school.
After the surgery, it was like I had woken up from a decade-long dream. Suddenly I had energy and drive, I had strength my muscles, I could recover from workouts, I could focus and retain information. I could keep a straight back and I lost a LOT of weight. And turns out I had a very good looking face, who would have guessed.
So take my word for it if you want, but I went from a 4/10 to a high 8/10 in the span of a year. All of a sudden everywhere I go, women would all stare at me, gay people would even harass me, etc.
So what's the problem? Well I have some "baggage" that I can't shake no matter what I do, some sort of lingering bitterness.
I've quickly lost nearly every friend I had in school, they became very antagonistic when I started self improving, my "best friend" turned out to be talking sh*t behind my back. So I never had any friends to begin with, they just accepted me cause I was a non-threatening loser.
There were a few girls from before that barely recognized me and showed interest, but I kept having these thoughts at the back of my head "you never even showed me an ounce of respect while I was down, now you act like nothing happened"
I've almost cut ties with everyone from my past, I want to get away as far as I can from that life and have no reminders.
The problem now is that I have 0 social proof, I'm someone who "no one knows" and "came out of nowhere". I made an Instagram account, but while other guys have photos at parties and group photos, all my photos are alone at home.I managed to secure a high paying job from home(programmer), so I can't meet people at work.I need to somehow find new friends, but it's hard, I have no idea where to start. I don't drink or do drugs, so bars may not be the best idea.
There's also this massive impostor syndrome, I feel like I'm cheating at life, just about a year ago I was a nobody, now I'm "attractive" and I feel suspicious when new women I meet treat me nicely.
I keep expecting them to suddenly treat me like sh*t, but they keep being super nice to me. But the fear is still there at the back of my head.
Overall this happened way too quickly and mentally I'm still not changed.
I'm trying to internalize the sidebar, but I can't hammer it down deep enough into my head.
Maybe if I didn't have the fear at the back of my head that people treating me nice are trying to screw with me like in the past, it would be way easier to make a lot of new contacts. Maybe that's the core issue.
Anyone else went trough such a sudden change?
EDIT: just have to add - if any of you suspect you have sleep apnea, get it treated immediately, it massively increases the risk of stroke with each year left untreated