I'm having serious doubts about my faith - But I feel like I can't talk about it with other Christians as I don't want my doubts to affect their faith either. But I'm so close to walking away... Recommendations? Where should I go with this?
28yrs old, married 3yrs, working on RP for about 2yrs, born into a Christian household, went to bible camp as a kid, youth camp counsellor as a teen, bible college studied for 2.5yrs
For most of my Christian life I've had doubts about God. Mostly over things like his seeming absence from my life, even though I've prayed earnestly that he would reveal himself, speak to me, allow me to know his Spirit etc. I've tried to live a righteous life, studied the bible, done all the right "christian things" but to no real avail. The doubt and disconnect between what I see God promising and doing in the bible and what I see happening in the world around me remain.
Around 18yrs old I was deep in doubt and went to a Christian conference where Lee Strobel was speaking and had just come out with The Case For Christ - Finally I felt some of my doubts and questions were addressed, and so I continued on in my journey
Fast forward 10 yrs, bible college, and a whole lot of life in between, and I'm doubting more than ever. Re-examining The Case For Christ there seem to be so many counter arguments to everything Lee brings up, and the more research I do the more I'm doubting.
All my life I've tried to know God, sense his Spirit, and live the way he wants. But never have I experienced anything other than emotional feelings during worship at church (which by themselves I can't trust, as I could get similar emotions at a Coldplay concert or watching a movie)
I don't want to post a bunch of questions on here that might lead others to doubting, as that would be counterproductive... But I need some help or I'm not sure if I'll be able to figure this out on my own.