Went out solo last night. I hate the person I've become.

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My gf introduced me to the world of underground techno parties. Last night I wanted to go to one alone. I never go out alone. I'm an introvert, I have issues socializing, I'm the timid wallflower invisible to everyone out there.

But whatever, I found this party, the line up was great, I took some ecstasy with me and off I was. First 2 hours were boring as I needed the drugs to kick in (I can't really feel anything but boredom without drugs).

The it kicked in. I morphed into my weird extrovert self, where I approach people randomly and talk to them. Guys, girls, doesn't matter. Built some momentum and I had a few groups of "friends" to bounce around. Met these 2 girls who were really fun, they were part of a bigger group of friends so I joined them. Ended up making out with one for a bit.

Then my needy depressed self kicked in. I wanted sex. I wanted to be desired. I started cold approaching girls I found hot and telling them I was attracted to them. I do not have to describe the look on their face.

Then I started being nice to people. I would basically try to help anyone that needed something. Girl that looked sick on the floor? I'd go buy and bring her a bottle of water and keep her company. Weird dude looking like he's not having a good time? I'd say hi and chat a bit, hoping to lift his spirits. Anyone who looked like they were in need, I'd approach them and try to fulfill that need. Just to feel helpful. To feel validated. At one point, I was just picking up glass bottles of the floor and putting them in trash so people wouldn't slip and get hurt. I mean picture that shit.

It went like that for a while, until I was so stuck in my head and repulsed by what I was seeing that I had to leave.

Everything I do is to be validated by other people. Everything. I can't exist without knowing other people enjoy me. And obviously, as I'm a taker, nobody enjoys me. My life is boring, I have no character, I'm a weak child struggling for attention. It's pathetic. The person I've become disgusts me.

I thought I had internalized red pills principles, but really I'm just this weird abomination of a construct, trying to appear red pill to feed my blue pill needs.


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Title Went out solo last night. I hate the person I've become.
Author redlurker9
Upvotes 131
Comments 74
Date 08 March 2020 02:35 PM UTC (1 year ago)
Subreddit askTRP
Link https://theredarchive.com/post/353701
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[–]OdysseusMaxim84 points85 points  (7 children) | Copy

Although I agree with a lot of the users here, I think that you may need some actionable steps to get yourself going. I was stuck there for a while, and subscribe to the theory based on gradual steps out of one's comfort zone:

Realization. Good. You're in that phase. You know what's wrong, and what behavior you need to correct. You're a validation seeker, (same, 98% narcissist), and crave other people's attention.

Core issues: You don't trust yourself, nor do you like being around yourself and can only be around others sober. I suggest spending at least a month, preferably three working on yourself in solitude. It's crucial to be okay by yourself. Learn self-amusement, I think Hank Moody is a tremendous example of this. It definitely increased my quality of life, because I like to find entertainment in my surroundings. Dancing to music in a hallway, playing with tree branches outside, saying hi to dogs and talking to their owners. Everyone likes to be around a happy dude. Create your own happiness.

Have zero expectations. Treat people like a scale. Everyone starts at 0, any good thing that happens it's a +1 any bad thing shrug it off and expect it. If they're good people and fun, stay around and get to know them. People like to be listened to. How to Win Friends and Influence People. This is where I am actively working every day because I am a huge extrovert.

Socialize more. Have outcome independence. In The Red Pill subreddit, someone was talking about how they won 100% of interactions because they just wanted to start it. You'll be amazed where it goes. The other day I had an urge to talk to this guy in the locker room about the coronavirus and we had like a 10-minute conversation about it. No name, no number, just friendly conversation. It gets you in the mindset of talking about anything going on.

Gradually socialize with girls. Start with 5s and 6s just to have conversation and don't care where the convo goes. Don't care about it. Just stay involved in the convo and when it ends, it ends. If you get a number, you get a number.

Optional, but stop cold approaching. Look up StephIsCold on YouTube and his videos about choosing signals. I think that that's a much better approach. Besides, the whole essence of a cold approach throws you off, as though you're working towards some sort of outcome.

Most importantly, get into activities and clubs that do things you like. You'll find people you naturally gravitate towards. The gym is where I find many of my best accomplices. Job opportunities, mentors, all people like 7-15 years older than me. I don't socialize with many people my age because of the immaturity. If you're in your 20s, however, it'll be different. Have a strong group of guys you connect with.

If you can't stand to be around yourself, how do you expect other people to want to be around you? Good luck brother, if you need any more specific advice DM me.

[–]StarbornProject12 points13 points  (0 children) | Copy

damn good advice

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[–]we_trippin_balls4 points5 points  (0 children) | Copy

Just copy this guys advice step by step.

Don't overthink shit. I know how it is and it's a waste of time, and not at all as beneficial as you may think. You're just hamstering.

Breath deep through the stomach. Try to do this always. If you feel anxious at any time, just remember to breath deeply and think to yourself that the only thing that matters to you right now, the most valuable thing you could care about right now, is yourself.

When you socialize just stay calm, you're the prize, you shouldn't feel anything different. Focus on your goals, lift, be healthy, standard trp shit, and take this guys advice and enjoy life.

Now enjoy being calm and not giving a shit about what others think. Eventually you'll find the person that you truly want to be deep down emerging slowly along the way.

[–]Bored1 point2 points  (0 children) | Copy

The way to do that is to get in the habit of validating yourself.

[–]OdysseusMaxim0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

Exactly, it all starts within oneself.

[–]MrAnderzon3 points4 points  (1 child) | Copy

Your help is what this subreddit is about.

[–]OdysseusMaxim4 points5 points  (0 children) | Copy

TRP changed my life for the better. It’s our responsibility to use the knowledge we have to help people that don’t have it and vice versa. Leave the world better than you found it. Thank you for the appreciation. it’s what we should be doing instead of just “lift more stop being a pussy brah”. People are here to get better and sometimes need a bit of help after they’ve done the necessary reading and are still confused. We’re a band of brothers, we must lift up rather than tear down.

[–]2000wfridge18 points19 points  (0 children) | Copy

Dont use red pill to acheive blue pill goals. This is important

As well as this you need to start practicing meditation, look inwards. It will take time but the need for external validation will diminish over time.

Focus on what you want from life and what you want for yourself, and watch your world change

[–]redvelvet_oreo11 points12 points  (0 children) | Copy

You really need to take some time for your self and re evalute who you are. Why do you feel the need to seek validation from others?

I go to techno partys all the time. I have never done drugs. I do drink alcohol but there are plenty of partys I went sober and alone and had a great time and met other people.

You dont need any one to validate you at the end of the day. One thing from my experiance from going full red pill is that me leading the frame and doing what I want and creating my own bubble of fun draws people to me. My actions that make myself laugh and have fun is what validate me. The outcome is usually people love being around me. That validation you would generally be chasing comes on its own and quite frankly I actually dont even care because thats not what im focused on. Once you lead and really develop a state of mind of abduance and outcome independence none of that validation seeking really matters but it will just automatically come to you.

Its the same in relationships. When your blue pill you WANT your girl to like what you like. You WANT her to care and listen to you but it never turns out that way.

When you're Red pilled she does what YOU want to do because shes following YOU. She cares about your problems and well being because you dont speak about them to her. She is always trying to fix and help you. She becomes a reflection of you.

You really need to accept yourself for who you are. Start loving yourself and take control of your reality. Stop undervaluing your self for other peoples validation.

[–]rangat4230 points31 points  (1 child) | Copy

I dont know why you are hating yourself so much. Possibly the e hangover has got you depressed.

The things you were describing helping other people out and being a nice guy is a good thing man nothing wrong with that at all. We need more people like you. You have no reason to hate yourself. It would probably be best to try not doing drugs though and try to do it next time without drugs and just stop hating yourself. Give it a shot. Accept youself and love yourself, you are a good person. Forget about cold approaching girls, not even worth it.

[–]dusara2175 points6 points  (0 children) | Copy

This is just flat-out wrong. The motivation behind the actions is the issue here. He doesn't love himself, and because of that he craves validation from other people and thus can't be happy without their attention. This is textbook narcissism, and it doesn't lead to true happiness like legitimate service to other people does.

I would recommend taking some time away from other people and away from the world to build an identity that you can love. Go into full-on monk mode - lift weights, read books, stop jacking off, build discipline, and try to create a sense of self-love for you to base your identity upon. We all have narcissistic tendencies, but some of us struggle with it much more than others. At one point in my life, I struggled with this shit too, and it took a solid two years of work to dig out of that hole.

[–]mr4kino6 points7 points  (1 child) | Copy

Stop drugs,

Stop alcohol,

Study well and concentrate on your study/job + health.

[–]huey7647 points8 points  (0 children) | Copy

Quit drugs

[–]Alliaenor8 points9 points  (0 children) | Copy

Just. Stop. Drugs.

[–]Portobello3614 points15 points  (1 child) | Copy

What did you expect lol. They call it an empathogen for a reason. Also, google suicide tuesday. Next time don't use ecstasy unless you're with friends or somethig you dummy. No point on doing it alone.

[–]ValorElite9 points10 points  (0 children) | Copy

Get off the drugs, mate.

[–]1MrTheFalcon2 points3 points  (0 children) | Copy

Recognizing this is an accomplishment. Read about Carl Jung and embracing your "shadow self". All that stuff you hate about yourself is part of you. Accept it, then get to work on yourself.

A Psychologist will help you dig up the "why" you are the way that you are. Then you can use a number of tools to start maturing from there. CBT and heavy lifting (especially squats) works for me. See "The Iron Teaches" essay by Henry Rollins. It's all about finding your place and limits in this world, accepting them, and growing yourself beyond them. Lacking a point of reference, you are incapable of growth.

For example, you make twenty new friends, and hookup at that club. Guaranteed the next day you feel like shit again. Don't waste your time. Work on yourself. Find something you're interested in (and kinda good at), and do it, get better at it. Help someone who has nothing you want to get outside yourself, and access gratitude. Stay away from clubs, -they are wells of despair for the best of us.

[–]juliank479 points10 points  (0 children) | Copy

Stop doing drugs and start something meaningful other than parties in your life.

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[–]YOLO-Bear204 points5 points  (3 children) | Copy

It messes up your hormonal system. Most drugs do.

The Recreational Drug Ecstasy Disrupts the Hypothalamic-Pituitary-Gonadal Reproductive Axis in Adult Male Rats

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2753463/

Substance Abuse and Male Hypogonadism

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6571549/

[–]thanusall-1 points0 points  (2 children) | Copy

what about lsd/ mushrooms?

[–]YOLO-Bear201 point2 points  (1 child) | Copy

LSD and psilocybin (shrooms) can increase cortisol (which destroys testosterone in your bloodstream) but won’t directly decrease your T.

However, one thing to remember is that, as with all drugs, if you use LSD/psilocybin closer to your bedtime, and thus ruin your usual sleep cycle, your body will not get enough good REM sleep to replenish T levels.

So yes, LSD/psilocybin can ruin your hormonal health as well.

FYI For what it’s worth, I am planning on dropping acid next Saturday but will be taking a tab at 6-7am.

Source: LSD acutely increased plasma concentrations of cortisol (Strajhar et al, 2016), prolactin, oxytocin, and epinephrine (Schmid et al, 2015). LSD does not increase plasma concentrations of norepinephrine (Schmid et al, 2015), testosterone, or progesterone (Strajhar et al, 2016).

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5603820/#!po=0.746269

[–]thanusall1 point2 points  (0 children) | Copy

ah good to know, and thanks for reminding me to fix my horrendous sleep schedule.

I haven't dosed in like a year, and really want to but keep putting it off. working on some projects. I normally go for the evening as we used to do our Aya ceremonies at night, and well the million other reasons to do it at night, but I can try some more day trips.

have fun on Saturday!

[–]extasis_T1 point2 points  (1 child) | Copy

No. Don’t listen to anyone saying not to take drugs lmao. Live your life how YOU want to. Not how others on the internet are telling you to. To me that’s swallowing the red pill.

[–]BloodSurgery0 points1 point  (1 child) | Copy

Cant you like, read your post again, and not find the relation between rhe drugs and your behavior?

[–]1Terminal-Psychosis1 point2 points  (0 children) | Copy

It's really a rhetorical question.

TRP has no help for this dude till he gets halfway normal.

This is not a rehab sub.

[–]whiffofass0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

I meant while you roll.

Girl that looked sick on the floor? I'd go buy and bring her a bottle of water and keep her company. Weird dude looking like he's not having a good time? I'd say hi and chat a bit, hoping to lift his spirits. Anyone who looked like they were in need, I'd approach them and try to fulfill that need.

I assume you don't do this kind of shit normally without the drugs. Doesn't sound very masculine, does it? These drugs soften up your ego and make you a nice guy people pleaser. Happy smiley guy.

[–]Redditgoodaccount2 points3 points  (0 children) | Copy

You took extasy, MD kicked in that what that medicament is for.

[–]catsdontsmile2 points3 points  (3 children) | Copy

So you have a girlfriend but you chose to go alone to a party which you can only enjoy if you take drugs and then you cheated on her with whoever was willing because of your low self esteem? Seems to me you should break up and stop going to parties you don't like.

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[–]illusiveab3 points4 points  (1 child) | Copy

as blue pill as it comes

[–]AuberyBitoni4 points5 points  (4 children) | Copy

I love techno too, just let the XTC kick in and dance until 8am.

[–]jackandjill222 points3 points  (3 children) | Copy

Also, don't go around wiping down the chairs at a strip club? Why're you helping random MFers at a party. If they wanted to be babied they'd be at their families house, they're there to have fun.

[–]thanusall0 points1 point  (2 children) | Copy

its kinda part of the idea going to raves. supposed to be a really warming loving place, due to all the e

[–]jackandjill220 points1 point  (1 child) | Copy

No, PLUR hippie people just sit in room & hotbox, while nude. That doesn't mean you have to hold her hair while her body evacuates itself of random bodily fluids.

[–]thanusall1 point2 points  (0 children) | Copy

I mean I probably wouldn't be that guy, but im just saying, in all my years of plur hippie events we never hotboxed in the nude so hey what parties you going to can I go lol

[–]meller916 points7 points  (3 children) | Copy

Why the fuck are you taking drugs? You'll only continue being the little bitch you know you presently are with them in your life. Want to really become a man? Figure out how to be a social butterfly without drugs or alcohol in your life at all - this story is cringeworthy.

[–]extasis_T0 points1 point  (2 children) | Copy

I think using drugs in the way OP has can be incredible tools to overcoming anxiety. I was so anxious in high school I could barely speak to anyone. Had one experience where I came to school speeding on adderal and began speaking to everyone, feeling confident etc. wondered why I couldn’t do it sober. Came back to school the next day with no anxiety, able to speak just as I did on adderall. Made friends that week that lasted me through high school.

While I agree continuous use of any drug is just covering up the problem and not fixing it, using it as a tool to overcome internal issues is totally possible and I’d say a very courageous way to go about solving social anxiety. I give you major props for even trying OP. You’d be much better off being efficient in mediation and maybe taking baby steps when it comes to talking to others.

You got this.

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[–]thanusall1 point2 points  (0 children) | Copy

go for phenibut or something different if you want to be social.

keep using drugs RESPONSIBLY. most people dont.

you probably should only roll a few times a year max tho, Terrence mckenna said to trip with the seasons change, which is 4 times and honestly perfect if your really doing the work. I dont even have time to do 2 times a year now that I see everything that I have to do to fix all my bullshit,, and I like to trip a lot more often then 4 per year.

imo, if you have time to be doing drugs often, your neglecting a lot of your work.

good on you for not drinking, that shit is THE worst

[–][deleted] 1 point2 points  (5 children) | Copy

You lost me at the X

[–]thanusall-1 points0 points  (4 children) | Copy

thats kinda immature, he actually gained a lot of introspection only because of it in this case. if you know about drug experiences you know what happened to this kid, and basically the drug let him see this shit in himself faster then he would have without it, thus leading to healing faster.

[–][deleted] -1 points0 points  (3 children) | Copy

Running away from your problems or the battle of life via drugs or alcohol is the real immaturity and if I may be so bold, weakness. Rationalizing all you want to justify drug addiction doesn’t make it right.

[–]thanusall-1 points0 points  (2 children) | Copy

no, you literally just dont know what your talking about, theres a difference between addiction, and using psychedelics for a purpose 1-4 times a year.

again, this is immature thinking, learn about what these drugs do for your mind, and maybe read about the experiences people have with them.

LSD and mushrooms are really helpful tools, and literally aren't addictive both mentally or physically, so I cant see how your statement holds weight,

people literally will take drugs like these to get to the root of their problems, when they are using them maturely,

but yes you are right, 90-99% of people are running from themselves, but the truth is you can do this with work, school, video games, anything that is a distraction from you doing "the work"

[–]1Terminal-Psychosis0 points1 point  (1 child) | Copy

This dude is totally off the hook loopy on drugs.

This doesn't belong on TRP at all, nor your promotion of this behavior.

If there is such a thing as using drugs to help your psychology, this is NOT it.

[–]thanusall0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

touche, im not saying dude should be at the club taking shit, pretty sure one of my comments here says he should stop and do them at home to journal and meditate.

and I think its a subjective opinion if it should be on trp. dudes shouldn't be on here just telling him to stop doing shit they themselves dont understand.

they should tell him to correct his behavior, if they are knowledgeable but youre getting 1 line responses of "stop" "you lost me at drugs waaah" from people who dont know. lo and behold anyone let themselves be red pilled on anything outside of pussy and instead just try and AMOG everyone on the internet, when theres quite a lot of literature pertaining to the subject.

I really have zero interest in continue the conversation in this post/topic as Im not really going to change minds but at least my comments are there for others down the road.

[–]learning00071 point2 points  (3 children) | Copy

Stop taking e, lift and read the sidebar

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[–]learning00070 points1 point  (1 child) | Copy

Good, now do the other 2. I have no problem with people taking drugs, they can do whatever they want.. But don't think that it's red pill, or that you'll be able to pick up any chick that's not a low class slut while taking them.

[–]thanusall1 point2 points  (0 children) | Copy

im not sure where you got the idea that its not red pill to take drugs, you absolutely SHOULD take drugs, just not often. like 1-4 times a year TOPS.

he should just stop going to public parties on drugs. do that shit at home for insight, journaling and meditation like they are supposed to be used.

[–]JohnQData1 point2 points  (0 children) | Copy

At one point, I was just picking up glass bottles of the floor and putting them in trash so people wouldn't slip and get hurt. I mean picture that shit.

lmao!!!

[–]RedPillAlphaBigCock1 point2 points  (0 children) | Copy

ONE NIGHT DOES NOT DEFINE YOU

Infact I couldn't think of a worse place to look for yourself than a nightclub :))) try a beach

The come down from E brings you lower than where you started - you will be depressed for 4 days - Stop doing them

KEEP GOING BRO,

Lift and self improve and things will AUTO CORRECT

Oh and smile and love yourself bro, life will be great agin , love you ,

https://youtu.be/yUnGf8nRfa8

[–]dudedoodickle1 point2 points  (0 children) | Copy

Its normal under x, dont overthink that shit. Next time take it with your buddies and watch how you confess your bro love to each other for 50 times in a nights time. Or better yet watch a cat lick his fur in a campfire light, that shit magical

[–]BruhMoment458860 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

Do whatever you have to do to be happy with yourself. That's why you need external validation, you cant validate yourself.

[–]empatheticapathetic0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

Use this experience to notice these things about yourself and work on them.

Everyone acts out on drugs. I could have written this same story 10 years ago.

[–]its_meKnightSwolaire0 points1 point  (2 children) | Copy

Coming down from ecstasy is so bad dude. Might have been that. I haven’t done it in over a decade but when I did I would smoke a ton of weed to help with the come down

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[–]its_meKnightSwolaire-1 points0 points  (0 children) | Copy

Yes interesting so do I but I never thought it was a bad reaction.

[–]notbadnorgood0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

The only thing I can really say that it’s awesome that you care about people and I loved that fact you was just trying to make ever one have was having a good time

[–]L_Ron_Retard0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

if you liked the line up why not just close your eyes and enjoy the music? Stimulants can put you in a mode of hyperactive pleasure seeking, and validation is a form of empty and immediate pleasure that never satiates.

Whats helped when I was in your situation is just closing my eyes and getting back into the music. That will make you feel good and lose your ego a little bit then you can get back to talking to people in a positive state.

[–]saiyantmr0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

It’s because of the drug.Stop taking thrash.Drugs are for losers.If your gf does drugs she’s not for you.

[–]tojesamothrowaway0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

Can someone with experience tell me how strong are catabolic effects of XTC in reality?

[–]IXseed0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

You're on a come down so you're not in the best mind rn to self judge. Understand that BP self you need to kill of is hard baked into your personality. It's gonna take time to get rid of and wont happen overnight.

Imagine your whole life you shot a basketball one way and were a complete shit shooter. Then you're 18/25/30/whatever and some randoms show you the correct way to shoot. At first it's gonna feel weird and off until you make it like 2nd nature. TRP is dealing with a core though process to life so it's gonna feel "weird". Just keep on keeping on.

Also it'll help to internalize what you need to do sober, using drugs and alcohol as a crutch to be the socialable guy women want isn't gonna help you.

[–]1Terminal-Psychosis0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

This shit sounds WAY beyond anything TRP can help with.

Read the sidebar, here and the main sub.

Come back after you've tried some stuff / thought about it.

This is not your personal psychologist. Wrong sub.

[–]Wrath_of_Trump0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

Going out alone is fun if you have absolute confidence in yourself and are in a good mindstate. If you're not feeling that way about yourself, you're not going to have a good time. Lay off the substances, you're coming down off drugs and it is amplifying your negative emotions. Same thing with alcohol, a lot of people feel like shit after a night of "striking out." Just stick with a few beers, enough for a buzz, don't get trashed.

If you're not happy with what you're doing, then just stop doing it. If you feel like you're forcing yourself to go out, you're not going to have a good time. Stay away from that crowd for a while. If you start feeling like you really want to go out and socialize again, then go. I had some memorable nights out by myself, but I had some not so good ones as well. When you aren't feeling so hot, all those people won't matter. You'll just be in a vacuum with your negative feelings growing inside, completely distracted by them and feeding them drugs. You're wasting your time and your money on overpriced booze and cover charges. Instead of beating yourself up and calling yourself a loser who nobody likes, stop putting yourself in that situation. Don't return until you are feeling better. "Getting laid" is not going to fix the problem. A lot of guys think if they just get validated once, just one pump session with a warm pocket, they will have willy wonka's golden ticket to stop feeling worthless. It doesn't work like that. Even if you get laid, or laid a lot, you're still going to be right back where you started mentally.

You have to respect yourself, which I don't think you do. You want validation to fill in that respect gap, it's not going to work. What I recommend you start doing is ignoring "the scene" and see how you feel without it. Can you even do that? Can you say no to going out on the weekend and chasing validation? That's just the first step, consciously identifying when your desire to be validated is driving your actions, and then feeling what life is like without acting on it. It's not the end of the world if you don't go out tonight. I'm not encouraging you to be a hermit pussy who is afraid of rejection, but you're not helping yourself at this point. It might be some other underlying mental issue and I'm not a mental health expert, but the first thing I think you can do to start "feeling better" is simply asking yourself before you do something "why am I doing this?"

[–]Jcorb0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

I feel like any time I drink, I fall into that weird "being nice to people" loop the OP mentions. Like... last week, I have some friends go bar-hopping with me on my birthday, and I wound up just hanging out with and talking to bouncers or bartenders. I had a good time, but... I dunno. I felt like I just sort of "played it safe". Like I didn't even make an effort to approach any women (which in fairness, I don't recall even seeing any that were attractive, but still).

[–]eugenechien0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

It’s cause you were rolling dude.

[–]failed_singingcareer0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

You went full-on MDMA hippie mode. Must've took some strong stuff hahah.

Most important thing: Love yourself first. Then spread the love to others. Dance around, talk to people, but DON'T overdo it. That's where you went wrong.

Read the vibe and stand your ground, and don't let your guard down. But be a happy, cool person.

It's ok you'll never reach your full potential without learning experiences like what you had. On to the next thing it'll go better for you don't worry!

Make sure you eat healthy foods and hydrate before/after taking MDMA.

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[–]LethalShade0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

Just remember that drugs show you the potential in you. If you can be a cool extroverted guy making out with girls while high on E, you can do it sober too. It'll just take a lot of effort to learn to do it whenever you want as opposed to relying on chemicals being artificially raised in your brain.

But really think about that. If you think you're awesome when you're high then all that seperates you from being awesome all the time is having stronger dopamine and seratonin levels. You get that by having regular social contacts, good fitness, doing things you like in life and generally finding what makes you happy and doing it.

Best of luck dude, you got this.

[–]pjordanx0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy

So you made out right? You have something to be proud of. Focus on the good shit next time on. Life is too dark otherwise

[–]chadtrx-2 points-1 points  (0 children) | Copy

Stop self loathing. You’re welcome.



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