TL;DR.. I wasn’t careful and allowed myself to get too attached, got maneuvered on, and I defeated myself.

So a few months ago, I inadvertently got involved with this super sexy, super cool nurse. By “inadvertently,” I mean it was just a Tinder fling that I let gradually evolve into more in my head. Not a relationship or anything, I just let myself get too attached by conceding a little ground at a time against my better judgement. Before I realized what had happened, I was already basically pining for her and her attention like a bitch.

What really got her in was she was (barely) the hottest plate I had but I also liked her. She was super into me for the majority of time. She’d hang out, and when we weren’t together she would compliment me and respond right away and all that, even send me a nude or two as she was at the tanning salon or fresh out of the shower or whatever.

Then suddenly she stopped replying all the time. Then she’d opt out of hanging out on our mutual days off. But it was so out of the blue and I really wasn’t all that familiar with her so I didn’t know what it was.

...Yeah I know.

Then as I was re-listening to Rational Male at the gym today, I realized what was happening but I had already let myself get off frame. I contacted her first too many times with no response. I had let myself get too familiar and showed too much interest and bought into that gyno shit.

And just like that I’m sitting at a bar feeling so ashamed. What the fuck was I thinking? Granted, I had just moved to a new city and didn’t know many girls, but really that’s no excuse, I should have accounted for it.

And no I’m not a noob or anything, I’ve been RP for at least 10 years. Just a moment of weakness.

Anyways, just be careful. If you aren’t, sometimes this shit will sneak up on you. We all like to think that we’re mountains, but we’re naturally mountains made of little individual marbles and if you let people take a handful from you every time eventually you’ll be nothing.

But enough of that. I’ve got this hot little Latina from Miami calling me from the end of the bar to play truth or dare with her and her little friends.