EDIT: Thanks to all you who commented, even the not so supportive comments, I was and still am in a dark place, and maybe hugs isn't exactly what I need right now.
I know the collective culture of TRP thinks that a man must be a rock and unflinching, but I guess even men are humans, I am not in the state of having ultimate abundance mentality nor the body of a greek god and the mind of a greek philosopher. My current state won't make my ancestors proud, but it is what it is.
What you should know is that I am still fighting, looking out for my mental health and trying as hard as I can to better myself, so your advise wasn't wasted. I WILL come out of this stronger and better. So thank you for your thoughts, and for briefly caring about another human being you don't know.
Hello brothers, long time lurker...
I will get right to it, I am recently divorced, and I guess the breakup is taking its toll. I feel unimaginable pain, and my productivity is pretty much zero. I wish this was fresh, but it happened 2 month ago.
To give a quick background, married for 7 years, first everything, middle eastern country so its not uncommon, I was a lurker here for a long time and this place benifited me immensely, but apparently I didn't fully internalize a lot. I thought just because different culture, some things don't apply...you know where this is going. She left me because I was boring and didn't give her tingles, despite a stable career and decent money flowing.
I read the sidebar. I started exercising and lost a ton of weight (but still fat, too fat), I was on my way to better things and then the quarantine happened. Sitting alone most of the day is making my brain eat me alive. I miss her, yet can't forgive her, I miss the emotional intimacy, the sexual release. The fact that i am working abroad, completely alone and cut off family and friends isn't helping.
I need your help brothers, ever since the divorce my motivation is shot, I simply can't do work or anything serious, aside from working out (used to gym, now home workouts), I used to chase after my career hard, now I don't give a fuck. I can't find the motivation/discipline to work or be productive. Why bother? If I become homeless and die... Why bother? I won't be more alone or more in pain. My heart literally hurt, actual pain from the emotional toll.
How can I get over her during a quarantine with no ability to socialize or date? (and honestly, no energy). And how to regain my mission? Right now nothing matters. I want to be a man on a mission, and I know how, just can't find the energy to do it.
Appreciate you help, brothers. I literally have no one else...