So I started working in a large facility to support adults with various disabilities to basically stay alive and whatnot. I can 'do' the work when it comes down to it, but most of my coworkers are sheep who are dead inside and the whole team feels distant and cold. Being in lockdown while dealing with this shit is making me depressed as ever, I need this job badly and but I feel heavy dread when I go to a shift, so bad that I want to just call in every time I am driving there. This is new for me as well, only felt this way for the last 3 weeks. I'm trying to view it as 'go tick those boxes and go home, the end' but am struggling a lot.