I had a plate and a fwb during beginning of quarantine, but somehow felt weird/disgusted going to the plate so I dropped her. Now the same happens with the fwb.

She's jelaous and wants monogamy, but I have problems trusting here in this corona situation, since I'm not seeing anyone else and by default invest more.

She was always at home (even when I visited on surprise) and I had to convince her to go outside for a walk or something. A couple of days ago made her go to the rooftop with me and there she smelled weed and approached a group of people. Exchanged numbers with a weird looking guy to set her up for weed. I made it quits already in my head and thought gonna just fuck her one more time, but couldn't keep my mouth shut and not let her know I don't tolerate this in this kind of situation (even if it was plate only). She started to vent how she is sociable and needs people and shit (not a word about it before, I upgraded to fwb 2 months prior) and how I'm always mistrusting her and that she couldn't even tell me if she went to smoke with them because I'd get mad. I still fucked her that night and thought only 1 more time, scarcity is a fucked up thing.

So yesterday I popped a cialis before because I knew I'd be too much in my head. She said she wanted to try the weed before buying and asked me if I'm coming with her or can I wait 15 mins. I told her it will be our last night if she does that and wanted to come to see if they roll separate joints. She felt uncomfortable and wanted me to leave. So I left, deleted her number and blocked her. She called me from her work phone half an hour later and wanted me to come over etc.

I don't like the measures, but I'm still trying to stay inside and not meet other people. It's a complete no go for me if she doesn't. She called me yesterday a couple of times and now in the morning apologizing. She smoked that joint with the guy and his gf (maybe only the guy, can't know) and claims she realizes why it breaks my boundaries, but it didn't sound too sincere, rather something I want to hear. She wants to keep going to the rooftop and meet people but claims she's going to keep distance. She is only for 3 more weeks here. So yeah, this sounds too much like she just wants to have fun for the rest of her 3 weeks and doesn't seem very responsible about this corona thing, but on the other side, she was always ready to meet up, have sex, cook and hang out in general. She even showed me her messages, but I still don't trust her.

Problem is I popped a cialis and I don't want it to go to waste. She exchanged a joint with someone yesterday and I would like to but can't go over it. If the corona thing wasn't here, I'd probably have sex a couple of more times and leave it, but I need some new perspective for this situation. What would you do?