I am 31 and have been depressed all my life, and have little success with women. I look at my family, and I see depressed men who do nothing but drink and be insensitive, inconsiderate, selfish, violent assholes. The women are "sanctified" and considered good, caring, considerate, thinking of others, loved by many, etc.

But I started to see that there is something funky going on. Why the pattern through generations? Why did I become like my father and his before him? I finally had to cut my sister off after years of RP because I can clearly see that she does not treat me like a human being nor a man. The personality she had created for me and thrust on me is like a castrated retarded cartoon character beta male thing. She had been doing this my whole life without me understanding it.

But I unconsciously knew, it came out as: being a drunk, insensitive, inconsiderate, selfish, violent asshole.

I see now. I was trapped with this cuntasorus rex. It was almost like some horrible marriage, not unlike the older men in my family. Trapped and just took it and fought back bitterly. Even though I've long since been free, it's hard to understand that I can go and have a happy life now. I can pursue happiness in my life, and like women and enjoy them.

I see how easy it is for women who you aren't fucking and who are not treating you with respect as a person and man can fuck up your mind and sexual energy. Our society is infected with this. It's best to design your life where you are THE man, and get away from or remove anything to the contrary.