I never truly doubted that The Red Pill had some valuable information to offer me — perhaps even information that could shift my life off in a different direction. A year ago, I was a progressed bluepill'er, and the notion of shedding my ideals was totally foreign. The Red Pill (and some other selected texts) have been helpful in pushing me to be a better, more rational male.

But undoing/rewiring neuroplasticity is long, demanding wok. And I still held on to some of my blue pill ways, despite trying to repress them. I even still believed in them, with the rational that "Well TRP is right about a few things for sure, but the world/women can't actually be that way...right?

Well, I had an experience in the last two months that I think may have killed off whatever doubts I may have had — damn it, you guys were right all along.

I don't want to tell a big story here, so I'll try to sum things up in a concise manner. Before the holidays, I met a girl that I liked pretty well and thanks to putting forth some of the knowledge I've learned from Red Pill (passing shit tests, holding frame, and most importantly — not conveying any neediness) I could feel the attraction back from her.

She even made comments about how she had never connected with somebody this fast. She fit an archetype for me of the shy, good girl. This is a really nice change for me given some of the women I've met in the last year.

Everything was just fine for the first 5 dates; I maintained frame control and kept my element of mysteriousness. I didn't promise her anything or communicate that she was my only interest right now.

But the truth is, I wanted to just slowly feel out the possibility of a relationship with this girl. She seemed a little more wholesome than the rest. Enter Mistake #1: Putting her on a pedestal

Uh-oh. It was a classic case of "NAWALT". "She's not like other girls..."

My oh my. It always feels so tempting for me to buy into, and in this case, I caved in.

I thought she was sweet, and somebody that I could be open with. So the other night, I communicated to her that I had an interest in actually developing a relationship. Enter Mistake #2: Communicating neediness, and removing the perception that I have other options.

As much as I felt like it would be well-received, what I effectively communicated to her was, "You have my attention." That's a big problem.

Anyway, after she left the following morning, I could just feel in the air that there was something wrong.

Sure enough, yesterday she sends me a text saying that she has "Been doing a lot of thinking and honestly doesn't know about "us" anymore".

Basically, getting that text means the party is over. There is no dispute at that point, I had already sealed the fate.

If there's any saving grace here, I handled receiving it about as best as I could. I cheerfully replied to her that it was totally fine if she didn't want us to see each other anymore, that I had fun dating her for awhile, and wished her good luck.

I doubt anything else will come out of it, but that was the best way I could think to respond to that. I didn't want to seem like I was distraught at all.

So in summary...I believe it all now. As much as I might want to think that one girl is special or different, they're operating on the same set of impulses. As good of an idea as it may seem to break frame and try to be open about what I'm interested in...it just isn't.

Speaking honestly, I have a really hard time approaching things with such a rational, seemingly heartless mindset. Maybe it'll just take more time for me.

Anyhow, I really appreciate the tough love that the members of this community dole out. By all means, keep it coming. I don't really spend much time on here anymore, I'm working more on just putting things into practice...for it's only practice that makes perfect.

Thanks for reading to the bottom.

Jadedly yours, -TRPDigesting