This is a miss mash of my thoughts right now on the wonderful direction this world is going too.

I was born back in 1972, my father was already divorced and had 2 kids with is previous wife, i found out i had half brother and sister when i was 21y old.... go figure and i got to see them once or twice.

My father was part from Morocco my mother was born in Montreal a mix of ethnicity. My father a part from when i was a kid never really took care of me, its like he might have been too old to have a child and did it to please my mother.

I was an only child, my grand father and grand mother spoiled me rotten, but there was always the question of i gave you this so you do that. Manipulation as always been part of this life. Humans wanting to control humans.

I was mostly raise by my mother and grand mother, who where absolute master at lying and deceptions, its insane as a kid going to the clinic don't tell daddy or grand daddy the things they did behind my father and grand father back.... they never cheated or anything but they never told the truth afraid to get dumped on.

I used to be a white knight beta blue pill because they did a great job moulding me that way to respect and worship women, this is why from 18 to 23 i got used and abused by women i met, dated, etc... at 23 i came out of my shell started indy pro wrestling was pretty well built after 5y of weight training and more and attracted tones of women so i just fucked them told them what they wanted to hear, and i was amazed at the amount of lies those cunts told there bf husband fiance just to come fuck with me. Sadly at 30 social programming came calling and i got sucked into 2 uses long term relationshits with 2 different cunts that once more manipulated me, i had so much pity for them

Back then religion was still strong gay lesbian homosexual bisexual and all those different orientation where still very taboo. In today world now religion means nothing after all most church in Montreal have been transformed into condos, and people don't practice religion anymore, it as gotten out of control. When you say that the most recent Assassin Creed Odyssey game you have some choice to be gay lesbian its really clearly out of control, or you can't watch anything on tv and not get splattered with a gay couple and its normal. Viva the Montreal gay parade anyone.

Its quit simple today if you are heterosexual you are not normal, most women come out as either lesbians or bisexual, and its perfectly normal. I guess the first time a young men complimented, you have such beautiful eyes, it felt very awkward, it was at Tim Horton not long ago and the other waitress told me don't worry he is openly gay.............. and he likes older men...... i guess that day showed me how fucked up the world as become and i am glad i am 47 years old and MGTOW could not have come in a better time.

Now a days love relationships til the end means absolutely nothing, after my stint online dating and seeing so many screwed up people, single fat moms with 2 kids suppose to be mature women, trying to get top tier men they could only dream of, over estimating there SMV, a 50y old hag tell me i am lucky to be with her she is so much in demand, this is how fucked up social media as gotten, we are below average but we want the best out there, frustration sets in when we can't get it and now all men are pigs. I was online dating for 4 years on plenty of fish, badoo i never went on Tinder. I chatted with so many women (not fucked nor met chatted), to tell you that most of them where serious head case, having good lives with there husband, kids, being happy but yet one morning waking up not being sure if that was the life they wanted, reminds me of my ex girlfriend i was 9y with who was treated like a princess we where an active couple travel and all and yet it was not enough she had to cheat and leave me.

Love as now been expose being a bigger myth then religion, single parents right now is all there is, with kids raised to hell on medication, depression and tones of suicide....

This world as gone to shit and it doesn't look like its gonna get any better anytime soon,

I am glad to go my own and try to avoid this toxic shit world the most that i can.

The life given is suppose to be special after all we beat so many other sperms to arrive here, but then you realize that nothing is fair in this life either you are nice or a jerk douch bag justice never applies, and then you simply die to be forgotten like your existence was nothing.