My work gave me a paid day off as a thank you for some extra help I provided over the last two weeks and I am sitting here rolling a hash joint mulling over how my life has changed over the last few years and I could really use a compassionate ear or two here boys :(

I mean, I used to have a wife and a full slate of responsibilities. I used to work more hours to cover the extra costs incurred in the process of building her "dream home." I was the worker bee and she was the queen. I had purpose. Direction. A mission.

Now?

I'm being paid to stay home, smoke hash joints and play my brand new drums that I bought with some of the extra cash I have on hand as a result of living a minimalist lifestyle (and no longer having a wife). Later I'm going to play Onimusha and maybe finish off my latest RE4 professional run. I mean, I'm being paid to so I have to I guess. I dunno, there's a whole day to fill but no one is telling me what to do and I feel lost and confused. All this "freedom" fucking sucks. Paid to do what I want? No one to tell me what to do?

Why did I do this to my life? :(