I was married (I know HUGE mistake) and I was a beta boy. I am 26 now but I was 22 at the time. I am going to skip all the depression and fast forward to the one night that I will never forget because it is something I will never do again.

Its Friday night in South Korea (I was military stationed in SK. Wife was visiting from the states). I woke up early that morning (4:30am) to get to work. Fast forward to that same day at 10pm. We buy some beers and begin drinking in our room (We were staying at a hotel, the hotel lady was nice and let us rent a month for $1000 lol) . Wife wants to watch a movie, I agree. I set up the movie and we get in bed. As we are watching the movie I fall asleep. She nudges me a bit and tells me to wake up, I wake up. I continue to watch the movie and once again I fall asleep. She nudges me again to wake up. I wake up and get out of the bed to grab something to snack on (helps me stay awake). I stay awake watching the movie while I eat my snack and 2 minutes after I am done with my snack I fall asleep again.

This is where it all begins.

She doesnt nudge me this time, she straight pushes me away with disgust and when she does she says "Just go the fuck to sleep than" with the most disgusting tone. The thing is I woke up at 5 am this morning while she woke up at who knows what time because she was not working she was on vacation. I am feeling the effects of a 4am wake up + a bit of alcohol in my body.

Perhaps I over-reacted but when she pushed me away and told me to "just go the fuck to sleep" it angered me. I woke at 4am, had a super long day, and now I am getting yelled at for falling asleep?something I cant stop doing at this moment because I am exhausted? Worst of all I am getting yelled at by my wife? The woman who suppose to support me? Not even my non-wife friends yell at me for this BS. I was mad.

My reaction was waking up, pushing her hand away, telling her to "leave me the fuck alone" while getting out of bed and going into the bathroom. I splashed some water in my face and woke up. I began to think "Fuck, I should not have pushed her away and told her to leave me the fuck alone". I walk back to our room and I see her on the floor crying.

"Hey I am sorry I kind of over reacted, I am just really tired from this morning I cannot stay awake" as I say this I put my hand out to give her a hand standing up. She looks at me and says "Get away from me, I am scared of you right now." I start to think "Wtf?" and I try again. "Hey come on lets get in bed" I said this with a calm tone in an attempt to not trigger her any further (The fact I even considered this shows you how Beta I was). She responds by getting up, yelling "leave me alone!" as she runs into the bathroom. I stand there for a second wondering wtf is going on before I follow her into the bathroom. I literally stood there trying to think back a few minutes ago to see if I remember hitting her or something, I did not. This is what woman mind manipulation does to you, it makes you re-think shit that you were already sure of.

I walk in and shes in the bathtub holding her wrist. I get closer and guess what? She fucking cut herself. This was the first time she had ever done that since I had met her and I quickly went into doctor mode. I grabbed a piece of cloth and ran to her to try and put some pressure on the wound (We had no first aid kit around, wasent expecting my wife to go full emo during her visit) . She responded by telling me to get away while she cried like a pig getting slaughtered. I become frustrated. I tell her that we need to stop the bleeding before it gets fucking retarded and we have to go to a hospital at fucking 10:30pm on a Friday and she yells at me again. I dont want to use force to get her to give me her hand because she can scream and Ill look like a fucking bad guy if people hear and show up. I get super angry that I punch the bathroom mirror (immediately regret it but happy it didnt shatter because I am not trying to pay for this mirror.) and my mind goes haywire. I leave the bathroom, calm myself down (I am not some asshole I promise, this reaction was a collection of stored anger that I had built up throughout our whole marriage. When you read the words "do not get married" please believe them!)

I was in the bathroom and get her to give me her arm so we can patch it up. We go back into the room and she starts to take me on a guilt trip. She calls my brothers wife (of course, lets make more drama by dragging them into this) and begins to tell her that I hit her and blah blah blah.

Our anniversary was coming up (we purposely planned her trip so we could be together for our anniversary) and she had showed me a wrapped present which I was supposed to open on our anniversary. She throws it at me and tells me to open it. She starts talking about how much she cares and how much she does for me and how shes probably just going to find some other man that actually deserves it and blah blah. I am not going to lie, it stung. She went straight for the jugular with her comments because she knew I really cared about our marriage (I used to believe in the whole get married only once BS and if it fails try to stay married and blah blah) so you guessed it, I started breaking down like a little bitch.

I begin to cry like a cuck boi and began apologizing. At the time I didnt realize this but now that I think about it again she was no longer crying at this point. She was calm, she was standing up again and she was just going ham with her comments. Talking about divorce and blah blah. She knew she had the upper hand now and me crying like a little bitch was everything she wanted that night. She had me open the present, told me I ruined our anniversary and I ate it all up, I was bawling so hard I swear I want to shoot myself sometimes when I think about.

I ended up on my knees apologizing to my wife for "hitting" her. What.the.actual.fuck.

Fast forward to 2017 I no longer am the same beta boy I used to be. I am cold hearted now, extremely blunt, and I no longer take any shit from any woman. Every time I start to develop oneitis (The old me still lives in here) I think back to the day I was on my knees and I quickly throw all those fairy emotions out the window.

Guys, woman are heartless. The biggest mistake a man makes is thinking "If I marry her she will know I truly love her and she will change. She will be a loving wife and trust me 100% because I chose to marry her". GET THAT NONSENSE OUT OF YOUR HEAD!

If your woman has any doubts about you, for example she believes youre cheating all the time when youre just with your boys talking about some nerdy shit, it will not go away with marriage. In her mind you will go from being a cheater, to being a cheater who is married. HOW DARE YOU!? How dare you marry her and then cheat on her? Yawnnnnn, dont get married.

The reason I share this story is to remind you guys that woman are evil. She will tell you she loves you a million times. She will remind you of every little thing she does for you. Every massage she gave you, every time she "let you have sex", every time she cooked for you, and every time she basically thought of you. Then, when the shit hits the fan, she will use all of that in an argument and guilt trip you every time. DO.NOT.GET.MARRIED.

There is no benefit for a man, you cant even fuck for free because she can always claim rape and guess what? A married rapist is worse than a normal rapist because how DARE you marry her just for sex you disgusting male animal.

Eventually I divorced her and everything went well. I kept all our shit and I have not seen her since.