I am a 21 year old man who doesnt have a social life muchly . I have 1 only friendsthat i can get in touch with , without any trust reasons( a friend that i know from my childhood, we share every opinion we have). Other than that i am studying software engineering. In my free times in week, i read LOT of books, do programming, and study my lectures. In my free times or in weekends i play games or i do some home workouts to stay in shape. My body is important as i will depend on it lifetime.


This text is going to be a long text. You can say that these are fake. But i HOPE they were. It can take your 10-15 minutes , so go down with caution .

Anyway, my story with women started since i started middle school. As cliche, i was the kid who was QUIET,and INVISIBLE around women. I got to know lot of women. Firstly it started when i was about 11.

  • i knew a girl that we were close friends , we talked about everything everyday, we shared lot of things. There was my neighbourhood friend who was an ASSHOLE(still like that) ,that got into heated conversations with her. After i finished middle school, we got to another school where i was in different city. I don't remember her texting me once.

-i remember 2 girls(my cousin and her girl "friend") that set me up in high school like she proposed me for dating with her, and then she said they pranked me.

  • i had a close friend in high school which we were almost talking and seeing each other everyday. One day i wanted to hug her, but i remember her pushing me away. There was a friend of mine who she argued a lot. He is a honest friend. I remember him saying me "she offered me a blowjob, but i refused it AS HER PARENTS WERE DOWNSTAIRS ". She always asked me for help for lectures, but i never remember her texting me for a conversation or hanging out. She never texted me after we got graduated.

  • i had another close friend who was studying biology. We got close in short time (2 months or so). I remember her texting me all of her issues for hours at the middle of the night. I was listening to her as i was not sleeping too . I talked her a lot, put her nicknames like beautiful or princess, but it never got back, i remember her starting to date a guy, who was an asshole again . I knew this guy before,he was kind of a bully type. I texted her once to see how she was doing . She ended conversation shortly. Never texted me again.

-i got in a playstation game group a year ago where bunch of guys in our country (i don't live in neither US or UK i will mention it at the end.) (15 people or so) gather up and play bunch of games at weekends or night. I don't talk with group anymore because i don't use ps anymore. Anyway,i got to know a man that is my age here, which is a cliche type of guy, rich and asshole. I had a girl "friend" in high school who was a quiet and nice girl. Now they are DATING.

-i met a physics Phd. Teacher who is doing part-time teacher job in our school, i get lectures from her. I remember first day we got to her room, talked about lot of books,education or so. She said call me so sometimes we can talk like this. I see her about 2 times a week. We got to know each other as "friend" for about 3 weeks. She aint even texted me , does kind of different dialogue to end conversation shortly.(i also study a lot of psychology and sociology books on human body language that how people react to what, like sigmund freud, jordan peterson). I know that she doesn't act normal.

I always girls over 16-17 start to go AWALT immediately! I got to know Russian, european, turkish, muslim girls. Other than ethnicity, they have same aim . Dominating men. ( Yes i know ,you are saying"Slavic women? don't lie ! Yes they are! They go to most masculine guy too, they are same as feminist!). I got to know rural girls, urban girls, vegetarians, high educated, prostitutes, stupids, smart"?" ones. I never saw a unicorn.

  • let me talk about myself shortly. I hate going bars, clubs, parties, expensive car travels. Because of 2 reasons i can say, 1 - i get constant headache as my ears are really sensitive 2 - they are senseless to me. I am the kind of guy who you can see studying in a library, reading book in quiet places or hanging out with friends at my house laughing our arses off. I never drank ,smoke, use crack or dope in my life.

I always worship knowledge ,friendship, freedom , peace ,sport.

I don't like to lie. I lost a lot of friends because of this. I always be honest. But i am glad of it because i created my bff friendship with this.

I am planning to move out of my country to do my Major in Norway and planning to build my life on developing Artificial Intelligence and Security Systems with Python in Linux there as our country is going shit with overpopulation and undevelopment (mainly muslim people getting to live in here. Sorry i had to say it but i don't express opinion. I just say the truth.)

I love sex ,don't get me wrong. I LOVE IT. but i can't do it if the person that i am with is a stranger( prostitutes, they are legal in my country) . So i go mainly with mast***.

I got bored of social life, loves,parties, people talking about things that are not true. I don't have facebook,whatsapp,twitter or anything. Just youtube( for education and comedy),reddit(mainly for comedy) and whatsapp.i hate it all where it is bullshit and lies. I don't watch porn,i am sick of it. Bullshit with lot of unreality.

Marriage,kids,family life? For divorce? Lifetime of unhappiness for a woman that you can't get with? I choose to mast*** with an expensive toy rather than ruining my life.

I don't hate life. Don't get me wrong. But i can't see an investment other than knowledge and peace . World saw enough bullshit with family life and reproduction. This needs to be over because i don't believe there is a unicorn in those trash genders! There CAN'T be! Well , is this angriness,sadness,pain and confusion at same time! Maybe. I don't know, but at least i know that i didn't start this. I had enough of bullshitness in my life. So i won't waste my another second with it.

Books,technology,peace,friendship,health, that's what i am in for. You? What about you my friend?