Firstly , ive been MGTOW all my life never paid attention to woman always thought of them as pump and dump never knew why im like this, didnt know such thing as MGTOW exists so i always wondered why i rejected woman i had instances where i could fuck a chick but chose not to however i was "fuck boy" on omegle and a virgin all i was doing was chating up girls then getting nudes from them for my personal collection as i prefered jerking off rather then fucking. I started a job in retail and again wasnt interested in girls that worked there only in their nudes i got some from one but thats about it. Fast forward 8 months i met this 20 year old on Omegle i was 19 she was from the south of America, Arkansas to be specific im from England we started talking she told me she have a kid i didnt even pay attention to what she said i just wanted nudes from her fine body (her body was perfect , curvy heart shaped ass, thin on the stomach and hands , huge triple D tits that came with cute red head face) i was amazed never met a chick with such a perfect body and attitude , i said anything to get nudes from her for atleast a week, after a week of her being perfect giving me nudes literally being my little slave , shed do anything i told her to do , literally anything and im a kinky guy so go figure, she have fallen in "love" with me but i saw her as just a nudes because of her kid, her kid was 3 at the time , i didnt want no commitment i just thought to myself lets see how far this is gonna go, then she decided that she is gonna buy a plane ticket leave her kid with her sister and visit me for 2 months, i tried everything for her not to "love me" and didnt want her to come to me , i was abusive , massive cunt made her cry alot, "broke up with her" (shed take a razor cut herself and threaten that she is gonna kill herself because she dont wanna be just a friend) i even went to the extremes of making her put a small towel inside her vag and clean the "residue" from her past partners as i told her this would make her look "clean" in my eyes and shed do it for a month (she had 2 sexual partners before me) i also made her bleach her mouth , she did all of it and didnt even wink so she could "be with me" so i thought okay come after a year and 2 months she came i quit my shitty retail job , bought alot of weed , alot of alcohol and thought to myself fuck it this is gonna be my vacation when i saw her at the airport she looked just as good in person as on computer (and no she didnt have southern accent) i was amazed , she was happy i was happy this was the time where ive decided after all these trials this girl went through with me ill "pump and dump" (before she came i bought fleshlight to train cause i told her i had sexual partners too) my hands were shaking when i touched her poon (i was about to lose my virginity) however this is when dissapointment we smoked weed and i was ready to "pump" we were kissing id be touching all over her body then i said to her to suck me off and thats where dissapointment came she had small mouth which means i felt her teeth on my d and it hurt that instantly made me soft i told her to suck as hard as possible she sucked so hard tip of my d got purple cool im thinking i went missionary on her and her vag inside was so destroyed from pregnancy i could barely feel anything i was so dissapointed to the point i was pissed off but i managed to cum and we went to sleep i would have sex with her everytime i wanted it was sometimes 5 to 10 times a day (she was on birth control) ejaculated every single time inside her, mouth etc it was amzing ,sex would last around 20 min because of her damaged goods ig moral is ive made up all my 20 years of being a virgin in 2 months , she would be sweet , supporting and overall amazing i thought im starting to catch feelings so i was very very mean to her and told her after she leaves we gonna be just friends however at the end of the 2 months my feelings tripled and i started planning life with her, she wanted to marry me i told her that is not possible and i will never marry her , she was cool about it , i said if we love eachother we dont need a paper to prove it she agreed i also told her that im just an uncle or her mothers partner to her daughter i told her to make her daughter never call me dad or step dad she also agreed she went back to America and we had a goal that both of us work so we can pay the visa proceses and everything that comes with it (she suppose to come and live with me in England) she started working but made very little not enough to support herself so im thinking fuck im gonna have to be the one that gotta pay for all of that and that is alot of money we talking around 40k+ for a woman and a kid to live in UK so i thought no she is not worth it amazing personality and body but thats not my child plus shes damaged in sex areas , but this girl was stubborn to a point shed do anything to be with "me" so im thinking screw it start singing (she had beautiful voice) maybe you will make it big, but became discariged by everyday life , "mental health" "daddy issues" etc. (Keep in mind her baby daddy was non existent as in left her never came back) so i thought this girl have amazing body like better than alot of pornstars so maybe lets try cam girling or even porn (she didnt wanna do porn as she didnt wanna cheat on me) she did cam girling for a while it did pay but everything she made would go to life expences ( she was humble never spoiled herself, only when it came to food tho haha) so we figured how we can make big money fast nothing works so i thought maybe sugar daddies , that was a failure too , after a year of trial and failure ive decided screw it imma make that money getting a decent job that pays well however that was a failure , meanwhile she loaned a car thats 15k (red flag) throughout this time i became an emotional simp her bad days would bounce on me on her good days never wanted to spend time with me only when none of her sisters wanted to spent time with her , she started becoming distant , started telling me she needs friends, she wants to go out more and i would be there siting on that skype supporting her emotionally , motivaring her , telling her everysingle day everything gonna be okay , she would cry every single day because of daddy issues life etc. shit took mental toll on me but i was in "love" with her at that point , whatever good thing i did for her it didnt matter i started not to matter , id tell her i love you, we in this toghether if i had money id send her some and shed do the same but one day i got pissed off and was mean to her, she cried and said she want to break up i beged her to forgive me , she said thats the last chance, if im not perfect she is gonna leave i said i will and i changed alot person from above this post and now is like 2 different people however one day i got pissed off because i wanted to see her masturbate everytime she does and she said no she wants her private time (during all that time she provided me with her nudes , naked body etc. But in much smaller quantities.) She said that is it i beged her for 3 days straight to give me another chance i persuaded her bit shes at the point where im just her security if she dont find someone after a while she was weird she was telling me i love you and planned shit with me the next shes like she cant forgive me what i put her through and prolly never will i decided to stop being a simp and wanted to do her last good deed for all the shit i did , i told her to set up tinder and search for someone shes like nah guys are there only to fuck, i dont want a fuckboy but an average normal guy, all the guys just gonna see me as sex object blah blah after scrolling for few hours she found a "cute guy" and instantly caught feelings i told her to tell me everything thry write as its gonna help me move on from her, the dude wasnt even sexual she started being sexual with him ahe told him shes a cam girl etc he didnt mind she went the same day to meet him , one day later they are bf/gf , 2days later she wants the dude to move in to her place , 2 weeks later he proposed to her, when we had brief talk 2 days into her relationship she was brutally honest about everything , how i treated her , how she is more in love with him then she ever was with me etc. She said she never cheated and thats one thing im sure about as i even forced her to cheat on me and put her in positions where she could (even when she had no feelings towards me anymore) she couldnt and thats one thing i respect , its a month now since we "broke up" the "relationship" lasted over 2 years, im not mad i have enough nudes to last me for a good year and enough videos of me screwing her that i can easly create my own Phub chanel , also my feelings for her are gone im just left with memories and lessons but my question is what do you guys think?

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