Hi to all, I've been silently lurking here for weeks. Reading all your stories and observations and I've finally bit the bullet, joined and decided to post. Now this post may be long or short, depending how rambly how I'm feeling (it is 3:30 in the morning and I'm stoned as shit). Anyways...

Some backstory on myself. I'm 34, an artist, designer, photographer (that's right I shoot attractive women for a living, not bragging just the truth). I've loved and romanticized women my entire life and the need to seek their validation has left me a depressed emotional wreck. This forum and others is slowly helping me put the pieces and my life back together and I thank you all for that.

Roughly 2 years ago, I became friends with this lady from new hampshire. Let's call her "X". I wasn't seeking sex, I couldn't care less. She was a fun, tattooed girl who liked what I did with photography and that was that, she had a boyfriend and I wasn't trying to fuck her so I didn't care. Fast forward a couple months and me and this lady are talking every day. She was a typical cute millenial girl, tatoo's, nipple/clit piercings, dirty tumblr account where she posts pics of her tits or talks about wanting to be fucked hard and told what to do (absolutely typical in this day and age).

The entire time she had been telling me her boyfriend was unappreciative of her and her needs, he was cold, emotionless, and she was always striving for some affection and love from him.

We hooked up and I was blinded. I kept thinking I'm the one I'm the one, her boyfriend is an asshole, he doesn't treat her right because if he did there's no way she'd be going out of pocket.

I was addicted to her pussy, to her attention and god knows I fucking loved it.

Fun fact about the crazy girls, sex to them? is a weapon. They know they are shit human beings and will even say things like "I don't deserve you" but will counter it with being the nastiest most pornstar like woman you have ever met. I'm talking about the kinda lady who will lick your asshole with a smile while calling you Daddy.

Fast forward several months later and it turns out, not only was she talking to me and telling me she loved me, she was talking to multiple guys the same way and fucking them AND her boyfriend.

Turns out her boyfriend is a really decent human being. Money, nice car, motorcyle, pays her bills, is there for her. But for her and her attention craving ways it wasn't enough, she'd have various rationalizations for all her behaviour. Whenever i'd call her out on something shitty, she would instantly revert to being the victim and get me to feel sorry about something else. It ended and her boyfriend knows everything. I have never seen a guy more cucked in my life. She's a serial cheater, liar, borderline who to this day is still posting tit pics and selfies on her tumblr and all the guy does is shrug his shoulders and go "eh".

I could ramble on and on about her or act like some keyboard tough guy but the truth is, she broke me. I thought I had found what you guys call a Unicorn and it utterly broke me.

It's only thanks to this forum and lurking on others that i'm finally starting to re-gain some self worth, or at least some motivation to better myself and keep that from happening again.

Anyways lemme end this with some of mine own observations about women from having Chad like game to being a hopeless friend zone romantic.

  1. Women do not love us like we do them. They just do not. A man in love will die for his lady, but a lady in love will be all "Fuck that, there's more where he came from".

  2. Women like nice guys with personality! cough not. That was one of the biggest lies I had to get over.No they don't, they want Chad to be nice and have the personality because normally Chads aren't, but if you're not a Chad, all being nice says really is "this fool is grateful for me, if he's going after me like this, then he must get nothing from other women and because I'm constantly insecure and don't think I'm good then he's not good either and as such has no sexual value to me). Women hate nice guys because they think they're all being creeps, but as men we were raised on tv and movies and mothers who said "be nice, be romantic and you'll get the girl".

  3. The prettiest women I've ever had sex with? I treated like they were beneath me. When i'd meet an average girl and feed into my feelings of lust and romance and "princess" her thinking she'd be a great gf, they treated me like garbage and walked all over me.

  4. Women will suck Chad's dick all day long and then complain he never eats pussy but will suck his dick when he asks. I'd say most girls are absolutely shit in bed and they don't love us (hey I got nipples too bitch). but let them get a Chad and it's all "ooooh ooooh lemme kiss you all over like you do me ooooh ooooh".

  5. The herd mentality. You can be an absolute loser, absolutely, but let a high smv woman mark you as hers? Now other women see it and want you. If you go to a bar? Don't bring wingmen, bring a woman, she will get you laid because women trust other women and will "buy" the bullshit your friend is spitting out.

6.You can't trust them at all. Because of what I do I'm home all day or in the studio, you have any idea how many housewives and girls cheat on their man? If I were to just tally my experiences and extrapolate I'd wager there's a metric fuck ton of cheating lying whores out there. Girls who will tell you they love you, but then go running to her "buddy" in a heartbeat if they feel aggrieved.

7.Victim mentality. All women suffer from this. You call them on their shit and if it's another woman doing it they will be all "Fuck you bitch" and go on the attack. If you're a man, with a point, she will start talking about why she did what she did and how she has it soooo hard or rough or whatever guilt inducing thing she can think of.

  1. Technology has killed how we interact but has opened our eyes to the truth in many other ways. For example online? I can't do much, get me in person or in a bar or a group setting? i'm a charming, goofy, confident man who will get you tingling. When it comes to online? I am garbage and women show how much much more shallow and unrealistic they are compared to us.

  2. They absolutely hate the truth , absolutely. For example recently I was talking to a female friend and she was waxing on about how men just objectify her and it sucks (once again I work with models) and I straight up said "the only reason so and so puts up with your behavior is that you're extremely cute , if you were not? he'd bail in a heartbeat, so while you can bitch all you want about it, it provides you a bubble that your up down manic hormonal ass normally wouldn't have". She got super pissed for a couple days.

  3. Women hate other women. For two women to be friends, one has to think she's prettier than the other or the other as to be sooo freaking pretty that they don't compete on levels. Ever notice alot of pretty women if they have friends, tend to have friends that aren't them? White girls love Beyonce, black girls love Tswift, yadda yadda yadda. They also change friends every couple of months and have NO honor as backstabbing and shit talking is par for the course.

  4. Over inflated sense of themselves. If i woke up every morning, turned on an app and had 30 girls wanting to fuck me, I'd be a monster too. But here's the thing, just because you fuck an 8 doesn't mean you are in fact and 8, men are realistic in this sense, women will think they deserve that 8 just because some dude put it to them when he was horny.

  5. The torch they carry for someone in their past. In most every attractive woman's life there is that ONE dude they can't get over. He was awesome, charming, sexy, and he was only in her life for a brief moment but she still carries that torch. Sorry married guys, I know you like to think she thinks you're the one, but you're not.

  6. The constant constant rationalizing of any shitty behavior and working the narrative over in their brains so they're right and you're not. Ever end a relationship with a girl and all of a sudden that year you spent together was, according to her, horrible?

  7. When women complain about "ghosting" they complain about Chad ghosting them, they don't acknowledge the dozens of guys they just stopped talking to, just the Chads.

  8. Projection, yes men can be super shitty pieces of shit, I will never deny that, but through my observations alot of women project their shit onto men. For example "men are shallow"... um lady have you seen porn? Have you seen what we go after or what we wife up? How we act when you take off your clothes or wearing something sexy? Women are in fact way more shallow than us, they are also superficial as they judge us by the material things in life. Patrice o'neil said it best "you think I'm wearing this coat will sparkles on it for me? noooooo that's for the ladies".

  9. I'm doing it for me! I'm sure we've all heard some lady say she wants to lose weight or go to the gym or look sexy and they always say 'I'm doing it for me". Um no you're not, you're doing it for other people. If you weren't , you wouldn't give a fuck about the gym or other people, you'd be sitting in your yoga pants eating cheetos going "I don't give a fuck what anyone thinks".

  10. Why can't I just find a nice guy? Anytime i've heard a lady say this I say in response 'that's bullshit, utter bullshit, I bet if you looked at your facebook messenger right now there's 20 nice guys who would treat you like an absolute queen, BUT YOU DONT WANT THEM". They never really say anything after that and the subject changes.

Anyways I'm gonna end this overly long post. I just wanted to say thanks for being out there and for forums like this. It really helps. I'm not fully MGTOW but I'm getting there.