I get panic attacks whenever I’m touched in certain areas. So, during sex my partner never touches me unless I allow her, and I’m always in a position to physically restrain her if I ever need to. Most of the time I just tie her up. Women who agree to be my partner need to understand my situation. So I’ve only had 3 sexual partners over my life - 2 of which were LTRs of 3 years.

My issue is that I’m missing that human aspect of sex. Similar to a woman with a high n-count, I’m disconnected from the woman I fuck. I’m willing to try and allow a woman to have more autonomy when having sex with me to experience what it’s like to have normal sex. My fear is I’ll develop hard oneitis for the woman who I do this with.

Any thoughts on how can I prevent this from happening?