Im writing this post while really fucking angry, so if you're gunna give me shit about that then FINE, just make Sure you follow it up with some actual advice
So I took the pill about half a year ago and since then Ive got fuck all in terms of results. Why is this happening.
I get so fucking angry at myself that I can't change, like for fucks sake Ive had easily enough time to get my life in order and for whatever reason I haven't done it.
The worst part is: I know the problem - I don't take action. But how the fuck do I fix this? I get up in the morning and think "ok, today I'll try and hold Frame, be social, ect..." And then at the end of the day I think "fuck! That day went shite, I fell back into my usual shitty routines and habbits and archived nothing" I want to take action but just seem to either become distracted or forget to do something.
I feel I just fall into routines and forget all about my self improvement. Like at the moment I'm pissed of and really fucking angry at my situation - which makes me feel motivated to change - but I know by this time tomorrow I'll be back into that numb feeling of routine and won't be doing anything to help myself.
I just feel so powerless and numb all the time, and that only changes once every so often when I get a 10min spurt of motivation. Like, the thing I want most in the whole bloody world is to turn my life around, but once I start to go about my day, I completely forget all about that and just waste my day.
I just want your fucking help, but I doubt I'll get it, my last asktrp post got like 4 fucking comments. (I'm not ungrateful, but when someone asks "how to manage their plates" and gets hundreds of comments full of great advice, and I get fuck all advice, I feel a bit shit. I mean at least they've got some plates) So could you up/down vote this post and leave a comment so it gets noticed by a few more people and I therefore get the help I'm asking for?
What the fuck do I do? I hate feeling so powerless, useless, pathetic and stupid. Why the fuck do I have to resort to making pleas for help on an online forum? I should be out there living life to the full - but I'm not.