I am a 22-year-old kissless virgin, I live in Lebanon(Middle East). I used to be a white knight mangina beta blue pill male feminist.

After stumbling upon TJ Kirks video on feminism, my views changed.
And I was always frustrated with women even during my blue pill phase, I still used to crack politically incorrect jokes about women. One time in English class the teacher made us read about a young guy who has a huge romantic interest in a woman and he wants to give her a flower, the tree won't give him the flower unless a nightingale sings till death, the guy agrees with the nightingale to do so, the bird sacrifices itself, the guy gets the flower, he sees the girl gives her the flower and asks her out she rejects him and tells him that he is not good enough for her. The teacher asks for our thoughts and I said that "all women are like this, ungrateful gold diggers" the class is mostly female, all students laugh including the girls but they look triggered.
One time I posted a joke in Arabic "leh il binit bas titzawaj bitsir marra? Le2an betmarmirlo hayito la zawja." Which means in English why does a girl become a woman when she gets married, because she makes her husband's life shitty. A girl who I am still obsessed with saw the post got very triggered and commented "NO HE MAKES HER LIFE MISERABLE!!!!". I fell on the floor laughing.

The girl who I mentioned above, I have oneitis/limerence over her, let's call her S. She is 25, when I was BP she used to act more warm and flirtatious around me, used to hug me, have tickle fights, we never dated, and she was concerned about me when I had a near death experience because of Al Qaeda terrorist attack. But when I woke up from the took the purple pill , she became more bitter with me, and I became like a ghost to her, I feel like she is manipulative, although she doesn't really have much experience with men. S helped make me GMOW.

After waking up from the feminist/sjw coma I came up upon Sandman (MGTOW) and started discovering the true nature of females.

I realized that women hold all the power when it comes to sex, romance. They can take full control of a beta male by denying him sex, unless he does something against his will making him desperate and maybe she will offer him sex, but she will cheat on him, I had many friends who went through this.
When my dad met my mom first he used to be the nice guy, but my mom was playing hard to get, but when he started ignoring her she started getting more attracted to him.

Yeah, and my advice to guys who have a fetish for Arab women is to never date/marry an Arab woman, they are highly demanding and ungrateful.
If an Arab woman found out that you are crushing on her, she will take advantage of you, by acting like she reciprocates your feelings , seducing you.

I live in Lebanon, legally Lebanon is a patriarchy, but culturally it is gynocentric.

The problem with Lebanese society is that people are marriage/family oriented even if they are super progressive.
Everytime I attend a family member's/friend's wedding people tell me "we hope the same for you", I reply I don't want to get married or even be relationship they reply "You don't know, someday you will fall in love, and get married" most people who think I am crazy are traditional conservatives, religious people they see marriage as a necessary attribute to life, religion, family , and are 500% against premarital sex and unmarried romantic relationships, dating etc.
Also progressives/liberals think that I am crazy when I don't want any girlfriend , If I wanna get pussy , I would only limit it to one night stands.

Yes legally I have more rights than women here, but socially women in Lebanon are doing much better, in education girls get much higher grades than boys are rarely punished, they can hit boys and be never hit back, one time in 9th grade, an 8th grader was bullying me, I couldn't take it anymore, I kicked her really hard, and kept punching her, the principal called my parents , my parents were supportive, but I almost got expelled. Getting a job for women is much easier than it is for men especially the hot ones, employers usually prefer them over a guy with a master's degree from a decent university. Men on the other hand must make at least 3 times more than the romantic target, and men have to pay for everything, if a couple both have decent jobs, the man pays for almost everything ie bills, rent, school tuition for the kids, food, while the woman takes the money she makes for herself, and spends it on unimportant things like clothes shopping Lebanese women are shopaholics for clothes, shoes, feminine products.
Lebanese women especially urban, are just like western women, they are slutty, silly , dumb,manipulative, sex objects, demanding gold diggers, ungrateful, greedy , bitchy , snobby , in bars they hold all the power, because of sex, they are extremely gossipy even older women. ALL LEBANESE WOMEN ARE LIKE THIS, even if they are Islamic, traditional, or ugly.

And Saudi culture is much worse than Lebanese thinks that marriage is extremely valuable and is a requirement. The only females you grow up with are your mom, sister, aunt, grandma. And have no contact with other women, porn is banned, premarital sex is illegal.
And to get married you need to be wealthy have a successful career either in medicine, law, engineering, pharmacy.
Your mother usually picks up your future wife, you never get to see her.
Arab women , get their vaginas wet when a rich man proposes to her.

But the more I learn about female nature the less I trust women.