I apologize if this post is a clusterfuck I am typing this on a half broken mobile device so bear with me.

I hope this story will prevent some of you from making the same mistakes I have especially those of you who are unmarried or those of you who are thinking of getting a divorce. In short women do not claim responsibility for their emotions and most if not all of their actions. In most cases someone else will be blamed for a womans irrational behavior most likely a man. You can stop here if you would like but I encourage you to read on.

I have been married for 5 years I have 2 children and I am somewhat happy but 3 years ago my life was a shitstorm and I was on the brink of suicide before I decided to do the most goddamn ballsiest thing I ever have done in my entire life. I filed a restraining order against my wife and took temporary legal custody of my son from her.

The problem was that my wife was retroactively jealous of my past relationships. Don't know what retroactive jealousy is? Retroactive jealousy is when someone is jealous or insecure over someone elses past relationships before they were ever in your life. In my opinion its 100% irrational to be retroactively jealous.

Why was this causing such a big problem to our marriage? Because my wife couldn't stand the fact that I was with other people than her and was taking it out on me violently. She knew how many people I was with (3 woman in total) she just didn't know all that much about my actions with them primarily because I honestly didn't feel comfortable explaining every juicy detail about how many times I pumped X's vagina...

I told my wife that when I was comfortable with talking about the exact dirty details with her I would tell her everything. I simply couldn't talk to her about this stuff because I knew from her actions that she wasn't mature enough to handle it. This just wasn't enough for her she was literally going crazy because she didn't know if X gave me blowjobs or not (by the way when I told her X gave me blowjobs and in fact would swallow my wife never gave me blowjobs again even though she gave astronomically better blowjobs than X). Moving on...

The situation got so bad that my wife was giving me bloody noses practically every night. I never called the police because I feared they would never believe me (this proved to be true later). Yes part of it did have to do with pride I hated the way she was treating me and I could feel a deep sense inside of me that this woman doesnt even deserve to know what was involved in my past.

The last straw came when she started hitting me and yelling at me while I was holding my baby boy. My son would begin to shake with fear and I just broke down inside I was shattered into millions of pieces. Without her knowledge I went to a lawyer got a restraining order and permission to gain temporary custody of my son. I was acting out of fear. I told her I wasn't coming home and the next day I brought a police officer with me and took my son from her. This my brothers is when the real shitstorm began...

My wife immediately went to the most hardballin man slaying lawyer she could find, She enrolled herself into a battered womans shelter and got the favor of the local police force and district attorney on her side. How is that possible? Quite simply because how could a tiny woman like her possibly abuse a 6'3" man like me? I was literally laughed at by police officers who were sent by her to check on my son. They were planning on taking me on a fucked up carousel ride through the court system and believe me I was threatened with jail time. My life was about to be destroyed because my wife was a psychopath and everyone believed her "im the abused one story". Yep I pussed out can you blame me? I even had the hospital documents to prove that she was bi-polar but the sheer amount of threats caused me to give in and I knew this kind of thing happened to men all the time.

The crazy thing is that my wife didn't want me to leave her she wanted me to accept this abuse from her. I told her if I were to come back you are not allowed to lay a finger on me and she replied with "well thats not love" when you love someone you accept everything about them.... She would eventually agree to never physically hurt me again. I made an oath to myself that I was doing this for my son I knew I had to protect him one way or another. I would be his secret guardian. We are still together today 5 years married and we even have a baby girl now. I am happy getting to see my beautiful childrens faces everyday it is a blessing unlike anything else but its been a long depressing road for me. I am still very bitter about this because she still rolls with the "I was the abused one" story and doesn't hesitate to inforce that should the topic ever arise. I feel like I never got closure from the situation and thats a tough thing that haunts me me to this day.

The moral of this story is that I was a complete beta tool who if was better prepared for the situation would have had audio/video evidence and today would be a happier single man with full custody of my son. I am new to the scene so i hope some of you experienced MGTOWs can analyze the story and get something out of it.