Im not the usual person. I was born ill. I died almost 2 times as a kid and i didnt even know. Because my parents were ashamed they put me into the "normal" role as much as possible.

As i mentioned before im chronically ill and i cant work. Ive gotten myself to a whole better level already and im really proud of it. I owe this mainly to myself.

Its a long history but basically its mercury poisoning with lyme disease. Im very very smart. I passed the intelligence tests in school so i would get to the next level because i was so ADHD and uninterested that i screwed up my grades. I simply also was way ahead of the other kids and could see through people so easy - the best thing is i never knew i was smart until a few years ago. I realize now i only made it through school because i was so smart to begin with. I had insane symptoms all my life. Insomnia, brain fog, inability to thrive, many many allergies. Its totally endless. I often didnt even know whats up but i was happy because i didnt know any better. Rare days of full brain function and i would totally dominate class

Because i didnt realize that im sick, i kinda became a good actor and found ways to figure out stuff on my own. Not all. But some. But i never totally appeared normal. My normal was foggy and spacy with shifting energy levels and weird sleep cycles.

But why do i tell you all this? My mother was quite empathic when i grew up. I think she did quite well, even when i later hat to pause my university because i would crash too hard she would be there and help me. This was when smyptoms would go crazy, before that it all kinda was at "bay" compared to before but looking at my history i made it a long time. It would all go on pretty well until two years ago it started to crack in the relation - for no reason.

I think it has to do with the reason that at famil meetings the gossip from my sisters and my mothers goes crazy and they started to label me as "healthy now". Yep, thats basically it.

She basically started to be abusive in subtle ways. She said im almost 30 and i should just get a job. I told her im not interested i work on my health and resume university. She said things that i cant even mention here because its just too hurtful to write and puts me into an emotional coma for hours. The vast majority of my symptoms are now neurological and cant be seen. Worst is the fatigue from the lyme/coinfections. I can manage it but its not easy. The more money i have for that, the easier it is but overall the protocols are a full time job as you have a lot of downtime when they work. You feel worse before better.

Long story short i lost my apartment. My parents said its okay if i stay here until i have something new. I moved out very early and havent been home since 12 years. First i had something for half a year but couldnt find something new in time that was good.

MGTOW comes here into play like nothing else ever. I dont even see a difference anymore from my ex-girlfriends, its the same pattern. She totally rages at me that im not heathy "already" puts a ton of pressure and guilty on me, trys to shame me with bullshit - and the fucked up part is i couldnt really help it make the same mistakes that i dont ever made with women again. She has no reason for that. She never researched one minute and has no understanding whats going on.

I give women zero power over me. I even denyed the last three relationships because i saw it as useless, the women left their ex bfs for the common "its his fault" reasons and i often saw a totally confused ex that didnt know what was coming. I knew. Its their automatic game.

Basically if youre sick, women always act the same. First they support you, later on its a perfect reason for them to leave you or cheat on you because of hypergamy. Then they blame everything on you. They see my qualities, because of my illness i was an outlaw to begin with so i became very independent and rebel and women like that. I dont give a fuck about what anyone thinks of me and i say my opinion and i stand up for things. I had to do this because when in my youth i was sick it was the only protection from not being bullied to death. Even if you have a great character or a great mind they dont give a fuck about that. In fact when i was the most abusive i had the most women.

Now my mum, there were issues and i thought i could trust her again. Theres also a deep connection from mother to the son so you forgive a lot more. Big mistake.

She basically cancled my university payment so i would go on "welfare", she didnt even ask me or tell me anything just one day gave me the letter that my on hold university place is now gone. I was like what the fuck, this is impossible. Then i looked it up and yes - it was gone.

So she basically made a decision in my life without any persmission. I never wanted this.

Basically she cancled the bank account from that i was paying the money. It was the one i used since i was a kid. Because she had rights to this account which used to be useful in the past i didnt even think about it. She cancled the payment. I didnt even realize it because i was just driving so hardcore into my therapies and focused on that like a laser.

She tryed to blame it on me still.

And i confronted her and she kept saying im totally irresponsible, im a mess, basically she said all things that could bring a person with low self esteem down to the level of suicide im not kidding. I told her shes fucked up and why she would do any of this. That she has to repair what she did.

It reminded me of all my ex GFs - totally. She would not even feel sorry and tell me im just something "she does not want to deal with" she even bitched about my supplements which are in chests because "its her house and i shouldnt be here".

I told her: You realize you fucked me up ? No answer just a bitter look.

Turns out she just wants me to go on some stupid welfare for sickos so we get another 300-400euros - which in the whole process is not worth it because you need a lawyer and you have to doctors for ages and im already traumatized from this. They always sa the same: CFS/Lyme etc. does not exist, no money. You have to fake a diagnosis to get the money. But THATS NOT THE POINT.

That saying with the minimal chance of succeeding, she didnt ask me, tell me anything or speak to me. She just did it. My total braindead dad which is a total controlled beta male just does what she says without even thinking logically about it. Hes her drone and he even printed it out for me. I told him you basically fucked my future and you even print it out without even thinking about it. You piece of shit. I shouted in his face: WHERE ARE YOUR FUCKING BALLS ?

This brought me to a hardcore fight with her. She wouldnt even agree or say anything she would just yell uselless shit, say that she NEEDS the money and no further wants to "pay my treatments" (total BS i have everything down to low costs which is covered by the money we already get, i totally live on stock stuff for over a year now so there is NO treatment cost at all) and that im "irresponsible and just should get a job/whatever" - when i tell her if shes out of her mind that she knows this disease in and out she just says: oh yeah but its also that you dont wanna be healthy, you wanna be sick you like it.

As someone who made huge gains this is like talking to someone who is mentally ill. Fucking up someones future for some extra money i didnt even agree on. No emotional support since university, no one was really there i was on my own. If i had a hardcore time she wasnt there. Same for my dad.

Yeah. I fought for my health more than anyone i know, so bad that i get countless mails because i know so much. I told my dad after this he is a fucking pussy to never shut her down, i had to do it for him and for me. I told her how it is, that never even considered on minute what im going through and that she messed up my future. She said she can put me on the street if she wants and that i should just X/Y/stupid.

She does all this without thinking about it in detail and without any idea whats going to happen next.

Then she was gasping for air and said "please..... tell him that he is bad and we do anything for him", like totally manipulating my dad and this retard followed her like a stupid drone although he knew better. Its too late for him he is way too fucked up from her.

All she wants is to make more money with my illness. So she can go on holiday :-) This woman is mentally ill. It also puts me in the worst position possible and destroys my plans/goals/dreams that i have if i ever do that. She can suck it and fuck herself. From this day on im totally done with her. There has been a ton of bullshit in the past. But this is way too much. But how is it different from the casual divorce shit?

I bet she just hoped all the money she pumped into me would be a kid that would give her money and otherr things when shes now older. Basically another drone.

My sister funny enough isnt much different. I cured her allgeries and her chronic infection with parasites and her food allergies. Now she looks stellar, has great skin (covered in acne before) and feels fantastic. Then on a dinner where i couldnt come because i felt terrible she said: He is just faking it... he is better than people think.

Im done with this woman. And with the family in general as 80% are entitled women right now. MGTOW is the only way. I have no idea where to go from here but it sure is away from this family. I would even go on welfare far away from her so i dont have to deal with her anymore, ever, again and build something slowly from there. That being said, its not easy to figure out.

I dont even know how to get a job when theres a huge gap now between university and being sick, many "blank" years but i guess some schooling programm would take me if i play the cards right.