Hello everyone. I'm not going to go into too much detail about my past and my sexual history. But I will say that during my teens I could never get the girls I desired. I did ok, but I always felt like there was something I was missing that would make the hotter and more attractive girls not interested in me. It baffled me that the hottest girls in my class and year group would fall head over heels for the sports players who were a lot of the time downright ugly and were massive pricks. It hurt my confidence big time.

In all honesty, I'm pretty nervous socially. Once I come out of my shell a bit I'm usually ok. I'm goodlooking and I catch girls staring at me sometimes, but it seems like whenever they get to know me a little bit they pay no more attention to me. I know deep down its because I'm socially awkward. As well as that my body needs some work.

I discovered this sub about 4 months ago. At first, I didn't pay too much attention to it. But I read through the sidebar and have read many posts since and it has enabled me to notice things in day to day life that I would not have noticed if I never discovered this sub. Which moves me on to my next point, why I'm swallowing the pill. I'm committed now and am jumping in with both feet.

2 situations stand out like a sore thumb in terms of red pill teachings. It was after experiencing the things that happened that I was 100% convinced of the red pills credibility.

1st story; There was a girl I went to school with, lets call her sarah. She is your typical hot dumb blonde who I lusted after when I was a teenager (I'm now 20). She rejected me countless times while every weekend she was off sucking yet another one of the popular guys dicks. I showered her with compliments and affection and she ate it all up while giving none back. She would be fucked and then tossed aside week to week by a different and older 'dude'. And every time one of her 'relationships' ended, she would look to me for validation. Looking back I am horrified at how I let her treat me and what a bitch I was. Anyway, long story short I saw her at a party a few months back. I hadn't seen her for about 4 years. After talking and reminiscing for a few hours, she ushers me out the door of the house to go for a walk to catch up on things. She tells me that I've grown into a very handsome man and that she missed our conversations. We were both drunk and I leaned in for a kiss. She reciprocated but after a few seconds she pushed me away. She said that sex would 'complicate our friendship' and that she's terrified of 'loosing me'. I told her she was beautiful and that I've liked her since we were kids. She rejects me completely. She goes back to the party. I leave, embarrassed. The day after she posts a selfies of her and some random dude in bed. I found out later on from a friend that she kissed three different guys at that party and she fucked one of them. I was crushed.

My second example is more recent and really opened my eyes as to what women are..

I met my first gf when I was 18. Let's call her carrie. She was very shy and insecure when I met her. She fell head over heels for me within days of meeting her. We were going good for a while. Fast forward to when I broke up with her after six months. It didn't take her long to find someone. Turns out she fucked not one, but two of my friends not even a week after we broke up. She said she was trying to find meaning in her life because she was empty without me and that they reminded her of me. Of course, she's the victim right? What an idiot I was for taking her back..

Fast forward another 6 months. She really developed into a fine looking girl. Big fat ass, double d tits and a slender athletic figure. After we finished school she decided to take a year out and move to magaluf to work. Now, for anyone who doesn't know, magaluf is a town in the island of menorca. It's notorious for debauchery. It's where European young people go on holiday to fuck and do drugs. It's basically a mecca for whores. So I broke up with her before she left.

A few weeks ago she came back home. I invited her to go to a party with me as I had not seen her for a while. Plus, she had been sending me nudes for months and said she wanted to 'get together' so I thought why not.

So we meet up and go to the party together. I noticed immediately that she was a different person. She was dressed like a proper slut. And her personality was no longer shy and reserved. She was.. flirty and rambunctious. She was a completely different person. At the party, people treated me a lot differently because I was with her. Women openly flirted with me and felt me up. Guys talked to me more and congratulated me. I was on cloud nine.. for a while.

About half way through the night, this guy shows up who knew her. He put his arm around her and she began to look very uncomfortable, so I went over and introduced myself. Turns out he was her boyfriend from magaluf and they had been together for 2 months. I was LIVID. The guy was the definition of a beta. Complete and utter bitch. It was only after he arrived that she started referring to me as her 'best friend'. He said he had work the next morning so he left early, but not before kissing her, which every one saw. I was humiliated. So I left. She followed me and we argued in the street. I told her I didn't want any part of her mind games and if we couldn't be together then I wanted nothing to do with her. She began crying and hugged me. It was then that she told me the full extent of what she got up to on her 'holiday' in magaluf. Turns out she had fucked over 50 guys and she worked as a stripper in one of the bars along the beach front. I was absolutely crushed.. but not completely surprised

I asked her what she saw in him. I asked her what the fuck she was doing. I asked her why she was treating him like she was, why she was sending me nudes and fucking other people behind his back. But heres where i fucked up most.. i told her i still loved her. She said she's with him because her head is in a very bad place and she needs someone to support her and that he treats her like a princess. Without thinking I angrily shouted 'you don't deserve it you whore'. Well holy shit did her behaviour change. She began punching and kicking me in the street. I was baffled at the beast I was dealing with. It was like everything I had read about the red pill was staring me in the face (or rather punching me).

Some women were walking by and of course assumed I was the aggressor. They led her away crying and gave me the stare of death. Because, you know, I'm a male and automatically in the wrong. I went for a walk through the city to clear my head and to try and make sense of what the fuck just happened. That was when I saw her with her beta bitch boyfriend.. she was crying on his shoulder and he was hugging her lovingly..

This was the moment I decided to adopt a red pill lifestyle 100%. I'm now fully convinced of the red pills validity. I'm reaching out to red pill veterans and showing my complete support for what you guys are doing here on this sub reddit. I'm fully committed to bettering myself. But I'm new to this. I'm unsure how to move forward (besides the obvious, lifting etc) any advice is welcomed! Thank you guys so much in advance!