- Age 41, Height 6'3", Weight 230lbs, Waist 42", Neck 17", BF 26% (Navy)
- Wife 41, Married 18 years, Together 22, Kids 12 and 9.
- Lifts (as of 3/16/2020): LP 480x5, BP 245x5, DL 200x5, ROW 185x5, OHP 135x5
- Finished: NMMNG, WISNIFG, MMSLP, MAP
- Current: Book of Pook (75%)
I'm taking my one free victim puke.
My wife has been threatening me with divorce consistently for the last 6 months. She has never been submissive for our entire relationship. She has always been a sarcastic, disrespectful, lazy, unappreciative and irrational bitch. I do not suspect there is another guy involved.
We went through 3 marriage counselors in 4 years. I did everything they told us to do. I asked for forgiveness, I did my homework, I took her on dates, I took on more chores, I gave up my hobbies, I lead devotions with her and with the kids. But no matter what I did it was never good enough. She always found something else to complain about.
MRP was my last resort. After swallowing the pill my eyes were opened and I became one angry motherfucker. I was angry at the world, the lies, the feminist agenda, and myself for acting like a total faggot for the majority of my life. Of course I was angry at her too. I lashed out a few times, but always apologized and took responsibility for my actions.
I began to read, STFU and lift. I had some minor successes. My wife complimented my appearance twice, but continued to treat me like a piece of shit. I began to shift my attention back to my hobbies and made some new friends with common interests. This only seemed to make matters worse. She presented me with several comfort tests which I routinely failed because I could not get over my anger or fake my affections for her. In truth I had groan to despise her.
The more I focused on myself the less I needed her, until I stopped caring altogether. She began calling me "cold" and "distant" and did everything she could to illicit an emotional response from me. Everything, that is, expect treat me with respect. She accused me of cheating, having mental problems and routinely called me an idiot and a selfish asshole. I ignored most of this since AA and AMA seem to piss her off even more.
About a month ago my state went on lock-down because of COVID-19 and I could no longer lift or get out of the house except for short trips to the store. At the same time my wife had a free consultation with a divorce attorney and moved out of the bedroom and into the den. When I mentioned this to the counselors they blamed me for everything so I fired them.
The divorce attorney told my wife that we should consider mediation since there were no major issues between us except for hating each other. She gave me an ultimatum and said she wanted a one-year legal separation agreement (in which I wasn't allowed to fuck anyone) or an uncontested divorce by mediation. I chose the latter. We interviewed 3 mediators and agreed on one that we liked.
The mediator gave us an intake form and we had to decide who was going to be the "petitioner" and who would be the "respondent". She said she had no problem being the "petitioner". So there it is. I assume we will file the initial paperwork tomorrow which will start a 60 day waiting period.
We've already discussed the majority of our agreement, it's just a matter of putting everything to paper. She wants the house and has agreed to buy me out. Everything will be split 50/50. Once everything is finalized I will get my own place nearby and start my new life.
The only thing I regret is that my kids will have fuzzy memories of growing up with both parents under one roof, although, there are plenty of pictures and videos for them to refer back to.
I never thought it would end like this, but I can say with certainty that I did everything I could to make it work. I'm sure I could have done it better, but it is what it is.
It's a strange feeling...I am both sad and excited at the same time.
Edit: I can't respond to comments because I have been permanently banned from the sub. I think you guys are assholes, especially you Horns. You yourself hit rock bottom at the 6 month mark. Did anyone ban you and kick you while you were down? Fuck you. Fuck all of you. You're all a bunch of validation seeking fucks. Have fun jerking eachother off. I'll be in the real work getting my shit together.