Was sending some old Snapchat memories of me from a year ago to a girl I've been fucking. A year ago, I had a bad downward spiral with drugs. These videos I was sending were of me doing wild shit, like at a moshpit at a concert, me standing on the edge of a 5 story parking garage with a blunt, me with friends going hard to music, partying, etc. Had longer hair and more of a grimy look. I've had run-ins with drugs before, this time it got bad and I went to rehab to clean my life up.
Girl says "Watching these are making my pussy wet." Said that wild side of me is so hot. The implications of this being that I was more sexually attractive when I was strung out on hard drugs and didn't give a fuck about anything. She has a point though, I had much better luck with women then.
Is this the penultimate blackpill or something? That trying to stay clean, off drugs, out of jail, just isn't as sexy to women? What do you think I'm "missing" that I had back then during that dark phase of my life which ended in 2 arrests and rehab that can be "replicated" now?